I wish I had been honest with my ex boyfriend before he relapsed and overdosed.
We were heroin addicts for 7years together; completely co-dependent on each other for the life we lived.
We had tried several times over the years to get clean together but always failed. I finally decided I needed to get clean and we weren’t going to be able to do it together so I left. He was gonna be gone for a day so I called my mom, packed my things, took our dog and left. I called his brothers to go pick him up from 5 states away because I knew without me he wouldn’t make it.
I got clean and eventually so did he. A few months later we got back in touch and he had cleaned up too. We were both moving on etc. I started dating a guy that I had known for a few years, he was really controlling and forced me to cut all communication off with my ex. Two weeks after I blocked him, my ex relapsed and died. His brother told me years later that his entire reason for getting clean, going back to school etc was to get me back and when I cut him off he couldn’t handle it.
I know it’s not my fault but I wish I had told the new bf to f*ck off (only lasted a few months before I knew he bad in an entirely different way). I wish I had at least been honest with the ex about dating someone else, why I couldn’t keep talking to him etc.
I’m almost 6 years clean now but I still think of him every single day and wish I could have just been honest with him.
We were heroin addicts for 7years together; completely co-dependent on each other for the life we lived.
We had tried several times over the years to get clean together but always failed. I finally decided I needed to get clean and we weren’t going to be able to do it together so I left. He was gonna be gone for a day so I called my mom, packed my things, took our dog and left. I called his brothers to go pick him up from 5 states away because I knew without me he wouldn’t make it.
I got clean and eventually so did he. A few months later we got back in touch and he had cleaned up too. We were both moving on etc. I started dating a guy that I had known for a few years, he was really controlling and forced me to cut all communication off with my ex. Two weeks after I blocked him, my ex relapsed and died. His brother told me years later that his entire reason for getting clean, going back to school etc was to get me back and when I cut him off he couldn’t handle it.
I know it’s not my fault but I wish I had told the new bf to f*ck off (only lasted a few months before I knew he bad in an entirely different way). I wish I had at least been honest with the ex about dating someone else, why I couldn’t keep talking to him etc.
I’m almost 6 years clean now but I still think of him every single day and wish I could have just been honest with him.