Hey Pandas, What Was Your ‘Gay Awakening’? (Closed)

was sitting in math contemplating life and thought "ive never actually been romantically or sexually attracted to another person"
as i hear more about bad dating experiences i kinda feel like in being aroace i dodged a bullet

What does ace mean? Aroace? Does that mean asexual? And genderfaun/ genderfae? Sorry if I sound ignorant, English is not my first language. I genuinely don't know what these terms mean and Googling didn't help me out either...... or am I just getting old? LOLL. But anyway it was an interesting read and am always happy for ppl when they find their true selves. Took me years to find and accept my own kinks.

I know I'm late but looking back on it I knew in first grade. I had made a "crush list" and it was boys and girls. Yep. I'm bi!

I’m a woman. Ive had crushes on only guys for that time in my life and have always thought of myself as straight.
One day came when I met this girl, she was unlike my friends and seemed to really understand me more than anyone. I didn’t connect my feelings that I really felt for her until she told me that she was in love with me.
We dated for 6 months, but it’s over now. Our relationship wasn’t working. I’m glad though that she at least helped me find out who I am, gender wise too.

My gay awakening happened pretty recently. When i was younger, i obsessed over a girl in my ballet class. i had known her for years, but in this time, i had spoken maybe 3 sentences to her in total. Only recently did i realize that i had a crush on her, and that is was not just platonic admiration. sadly, she moved to a country on the other side of the world, so i have no chance to correct my awkwardness.

I always knew I was aroace despite not having the vocabulary for it-- my parents will tell this story about how a very young me would loudly insist that "IF i EVER get married, I'm not kissing the groom. Im fist bumping him. Because kissing is gross." I finally found the vocabulary through two separate online role plays because I had to Google them to figure out what they meant and not seem weird. Promptly tried not to slam my head into a desk from embarrassment.

So I liked both genders since 5th grade. But I think I'm lesbian at this point.... What made me realize it? My friend showed me a video they were snaped. Of a guy... With a yogurt cup... Um...

Well, I had never had a close bond with any male human being (except for my dad and brother), and In middle school, I had a close group of female friends. I then started to realize that I had never felt a romantic attraction to a boy, only to girls at some moments. And yeah, after a while, I realized that I'm a demiromantic lesbian! :)

Realised I was lesbian when I started finding girls “hot”. Realised I was aroace when I found out that I’m not comfortable envisioning myself in any relationship with anyone of any gender(whether romantic or sexual). I at times feel like wanting to be in one of those kinds of relationship but I don’t really have any gender I’d like to date.

When I first met my boyfriend, I felt a spark between us, but I ignored it at first, but then I couldn’t keep it hidden anymore, so I told him that I loved him and he said he also loves me, and that was when I realized that I was gay, but I have had crushes on girls, so I’m bisexual, but I like boys more than girls. I’m a gay bisexual transgender boy.

My awakening was when my friend came out as a lesbian. I then realized I never really liked a boy and ended up having a crush on a girl for a looooooong time.

Shakira's "Whenever, Wherever" music video. I was about five or six? My dad would sit me down and we would rewatch that blessed music video over and over throughout a few months. Every single time he would mention how, "Shakira here is representing Aphrodite, the goddess of love and beauty. Isn't that cool?"
And he thought I wouldn't turn out gay like let's be real here

When I was in 3rd grade I developed a crush on a girl ... I never said anything to anyone about it. She later moved away and, naturally, I developed a crush on another girl ... and still said nothing. By 8th grade I knew something wasn't "normal" about me. I didn't formally come out until I was out of university.

There was probably a few times, but the best 2 I can think of are these.

1) When I was probably 10 or 11 I started noticing how the older girls were really pretty and how I wanted to be "really good friends" with them. I'm now omnisexual haha

2) When I first got my period I was extremely depressed and this would happen every single time without fail. I felt so disgusting and would cry myself to sleep a lot. Then I started noticing little things about boys that made me say, I want that, or, I want to be like him. I'm now out and proud as a trans demiboy!

I always knew I was aroace despite not having the vocabulary for it-- my parents will tell this story about how a very young me would loudly insist that "IF i EVER get married, I'm not kissing the groom. Im fist bumping him. Because kissing is gross." I finally found the vocabulary through two separate online role plays because I had to Google them to figure out what they meant and not seem weird. Promptly tried not to slam my head into a desk from embarrassment.

It was gradual for me. I was three crying inconsolably because I didn't have a penis. I was ten not understanding why other girls made fun of my "boy" clothes. I was eleven watching my first R rated movie (Pretty Woman) next to the hot babysitter from my church (14), wondering if she noticed how nice it felt that our thighs and shoulders were touching. I was 14 and the girl I couldn't stop staring at admitted she kissed her female friend, and I was jealous. I was sixteen losing my lesbian V card to a pretty Jamaican girl with the aid of Pink Floyd and some special brownies, feeling like, why did I ever waste time on boys? I was 18 and changed my name, then felt like myself for the first time when someone used it to get my attention. I was 19 and shaved my head and felt like my hair must have weighed a ton considering how relieved I felt, like I'd set down a heavy backpack I'd been carrying my whole life. I was 20 and 100% cool with the fact my gf wasn't ready for sex...for six months I just never really thought about it, and was perfectly happy. I was 24 and holding my baby, getting perceived as his father and being fine with that. I was 27 and my foster kid explained non-binary to me and I was both uncomfortable and intrigued. I was 29 and refered to the future as "when I'm a grumpy old man" without realizing it until a friend said, "you mean woman?" And after a moment I realized no, I didn't mean woman. I was 31 and my friends explained to me that there actually was a difference between platonic and romantic love for them. I was 32 and my gf brought me testosterone she'd bought over the counter in Mexico (where we were living). I was 35 and strangers began to refer to me regularly as buddy, sir, boss, he/him. I'm 36, single, not sexually involved, and happy with how I fit into the world.
Genderqueer, trans masculine, nonbinary, lesbian, ace, gray aro and still learning new ways to define myself.

I saw an aroace person online talking about how they had thought they had crushes on people only to realize that she wanted to be their friend. I was like “ hey that sounds like me”

OK so I'm asexual and don't consider myself to be gay (I'm heteroromantic) buut being ace is still being LGBTQ and I did still have an 'awakening' so it counts.
When I was about 19 I was on an online discord call with my best friend and we decided to do a tier list (something that was long out of fashion but we were bored and online) and my friend suggested a 'sexy characters' list. So we did that list separately talking about them together but ranking them individually on our own screens and then shared each other a picture at the end. I had put no one in the very top tier. His brother was in the room when we showed each other our lists and heard him say 'wait, they didn't have *anyone* at the top??'. That's when I had a sudden hit of 'wait, do I not find people sexy? Like, actually sexy?'
That started another 6ish months of thinking about how I feel and realising no, I don't. I only like the way people look sometimes.
(That friend also turned out to be ace as well not long after I realised which always makes me smile as well)

Soo I first like a girl when I was 10. That's when I thought I was bi. Then I fell in love with my best friend ( a bi girl) for a while but like some enby people I knew as well . So I thought I was pan. Now ik that I'm Abrosexual . ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜

I realized I was ploy bc I had read threesome fanfics and liked them. from Wattpad.