Hey Pandas, What Is Something You Need To Get Off Your Chest? (Closed)

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I have terrible relationship commitment issues and when things get to serious I run away.

Mmmmm I HATE the fact that I practically rely on relationships to keep me upright. Ever since I was young even before second grade (I’m going into junior year of High School now) I’ve had what I call a Disney Princess complex because I’ve always HAD to have a crush or a partner or else there was just this,,, void in my gut- not necessarily horrible but it felt like I was missing a part of me- this has led to me being assaulted in relationships, even assaulting others (in the means of forcing them into a kiss IN 1ST AND 2ND GRADE I HAVE NOT DONE IT SINCE I WAS YOUNG AND DIDNT KNOW), and breaking other people’s hearts when the dream suddenly stopped because I don’t know I’d get a weird feeling in my gut like something was off and leave.
I don’t know if this DPC was started by my obsession with Disney movies or my (maybe it’s still getting diagnosed) ADHD/maybe more or by my parents teasing. The worst part is I’m starting to see me in my little sister who’s going into 1st grade as in she’s chasing down boys her age and calling them her boyfriend (they’re not I’ve had a little boy come crying to me) and getting all over them. It’s reminded me so much of myself I’ve started a subconscious hatred of that side of her and I hate myself for hating that valuable sweet young girl, it tears me apart.
Ugh honestly the worst part is how I know and have to live with the fact I’ll never have a first time for virtually anyone romantically or sexually and also the fact that I stole many young boys’ first kisses but I’m glad we moved so they never have to face me the person who took that important memory from them ever again.
I hate having to love someone but I love loving people on my own, I just wish that I could be single in peace and not have to chase down any boys or girls continuously to have peace, it could’ve saved me and other people’s innocence
Thank you for listening

I’m pansexual, but my parents don’t know. Siblings and a couple others do though.

This one is kinda weird/embarrassing… each night I wait for my parents to fall asleep. Then spend most of the night reading fan fiction. Not the sexual ones though THOSE ARE WEIRD!

Sometimes I pretend to be a character from a video game or move or tv show that I like. Then basically a fanfic in my head while kinda acting it out. I’m weird.

I promised my siblings that I’ll get therapy in high school due to our mother but secretly I feel like I can’t trust a therapist to not tell my mom anything. I’m paranoid that my mom will find out anything I say about her and will punish me…

I'm not a straight perfect kid, I'm pansexual and nonbinary, and I want to go by a different name/pronouns. also I have a huge crush on a friend I haven't seen in a year. I'm always angry but cant tell anyone but random people in the internet ;p

My friend is moving in with me when her lease runs up at the end of the month. The day after I agreed she could move in she basically moved in. I had really wanted that month for alone time. I tried talking to her about wanting alone time, but she guilted me again. She is a good friend, but she manipulates me and guilts me more than my Jewish grandmother ever did.

Mmmmm I HATE the fact that I practically rely on relationships to keep me upright. Ever since I was young even before second grade (I’m going into junior year of High School now) I’ve had what I call a Disney Princess complex because I’ve always HAD to have a crush or a partner or else there was just this,,, void in my gut- not necessarily horrible but it felt like I was missing a part of me- this has led to me being assaulted in relationships, even assaulting others (in the means of forcing them into a kiss IN 1ST AND 2ND GRADE I HAVE NOT DONE IT SINCE I WAS YOUNG AND DIDNT KNOW), and breaking other people’s hearts when the dream suddenly stopped because I don’t know I’d get a weird feeling in my gut like something was off and leave.
I don’t know if this DPC was started by my obsession with Disney movies or my (maybe it’s still getting diagnosed) ADHD/maybe more or by my parents teasing. The worst part is I’m starting to see me in my little sister who’s going into 1st grade as in she’s chasing down boys her age and calling them her boyfriend (they’re not I’ve had a little boy come crying to me) and getting all over them. It’s reminded me so much of myself I’ve started a subconscious hatred of that side of her and I hate myself for hating that valuable sweet young girl, it tears me apart.
Ugh honestly the worst part is how I know and have to live with the fact I’ll never have a first time for virtually anyone romantically or sexually and also the fact that I stole many young boys’ first kisses but I’m glad we moved so they never have to face me the person who took that important memory from them ever again.
I hate having to love someone but I love loving people on my own, I just wish that I could be single in peace and not have to chase down any boys or girls continuously to have peace, it could’ve saved me and other people’s innocence
Thank you for listening

Mmmmm I HATE the fact that I practically rely on relationships to keep me upright. Ever since I was young even before second grade (I’m going into junior year of High School now) I’ve had what I call a Disney Princess complex because I’ve always HAD to have a crush or a partner or else there was just this,,, void in my gut- not necessarily horrible but it felt like I was missing a part of me- this has led to me being assaulted in relationships, even assaulting others (in the means of forcing them into a kiss IN 1ST AND 2ND GRADE I HAVE NOT DONE IT SINCE I WAS YOUNG AND DIDNT KNOW), and breaking other people’s hearts when the dream suddenly stopped because I don’t know I’d get a weird feeling in my gut like something was off and leave.
I don’t know if this DPC was started by my obsession with Disney movies or my (maybe it’s still getting diagnosed) ADHD/maybe more or by my parents teasing. The worst part is I’m starting to see me in my little sister who’s going into 1st grade as in she’s chasing down boys her age and calling them her boyfriend (they’re not I’ve had a little boy come crying to me) and getting all over them. It’s reminded me so much of myself I’ve started a subconscious hatred of that side of her and I hate myself for hating that valuable sweet young girl, it tears me apart.
Ugh honestly the worst part is how I know and have to live with the fact I’ll never have a first time for virtually anyone romantically or sexually and also the fact that I stole many young boys’ first kisses but I’m glad we moved so they never have to face me the person who took that important memory from them ever again.
I hate having to love someone but I love loving people on my own, I just wish that I could be single in peace and not have to chase down any boys or girls continuously to have peace, it could’ve saved me and other people’s innocence
Thank you for listening