Hey Pandas, This Is A Safe Space To Get Things Off Your Chest. What Do You Wanna Talk About? (Closed)

Please don't get me in trouble. I don't like that.
Anyway my relationship with life is strained, and the fight against self harm is losing. I'm three months clean but I feel so close to just...giving up.
School is hard, I wish I didn't have so much work to do when I get home from it, it's ridiculous.
I need to get my license, so I can get out of here.
I need a job so I can get money to save for college or at least a house if I don't go to a high end university.
I just wanna be somewhere safe. My house isn't it. I wanna go home but I don't know what my home is or where I can consider home.
I wish I could just go, without hurting people, myself. I wanna disappear, and maybe die along the way.
I hope I don't lose this.

Now that my kids are grown and moved out, I don’t feel like a woman or a man. (48F) I feel like some sort of hybrid species or something

I’m going to be honest this is exactly what I need right now. My depression has gotten deeper and I’m afraid this time I won’t be able to snap out of it. None of my friends (I have three) understand music like I do. It’s the only thing that makes me happy. I used to play video games to escape but now it’s like I don’t have the energy. I hide my sexuality from my parents because they’re homophobic and I don’t know how to explain it but I’m always so exhausted, It’s like I can’t move. My friends are starting to leave me and one of them is my girlfriend. I love her but I think because I’m always so tired that she thinks I don’t like her anymore. I also have to hide my girlfriend from my parents. School is stressful because my parents beat the crap out of me so I get A’s and A’s only. I tried telling my parents that I need therapy but they didn’t believe me. I can feel the energy getting drained out of me, I’m scared.

I’m so looking forward to an Asteroid coming down and resetting humanity! Lol Either that, or the Alien Invasion!

I'm not a girl. I've told a few people, but I know I'm at least somewhat a boy. it's hard.

Ugh, where do I begin? I can't say too much for fear of being found out. Let's just say that at 51, my life is total sh*t. The only good things in my life are my job and my doggo. I was recently diagnosed with a rare skin disease that is secondary and caused by end stage kidney failure. I won't say what it is, but it's disgusting and pics on the internet of of people who didn't get treatment right away. I'm no where near as bad, but I don't want anyone to look, even though we're strangers. There is no treatment, but if I get a kidney transplant, it should go away. I will need help burying all the bodies because they're going to make me quit smoking. Anyone have a shovel?

My cat had to be put to sleep in the early hours of Saturday morning & I stayed with him til he passed. I can’t see past anything right now & just don’t want to wake up. I feel so lost & the pain is unbearable.

People being rude from different opinions is driving me crazy, especially when they're dumb. Mainly, I've noticed that "christians" mistreat LGBT people just because of one thing they don't agree with. As a Christian myself, I know that's not how real chrisitans are. I don't want any hate from this, I'm just sharing my thoughts (not spreading any hate either) I know that people can't control who their attracted to at all (some thing a lot of people need to understand) and that's why I don't shun people just because of that. Now, based on my belief system, people who are attracted to same genders should not act upon it, even though they can't help how they feel... But that doesn't mean I hate them or shun them if they do. Again, not trying to force a religion on anyone or try to manifest your minds... Just saying what I wish a lot of people would understand about christians. Lately we've had a bad reputation because of stupid people. Thanks for listening and I don't know you but I love you

People being rude from different opinions is driving me crazy, especially when they're dumb. Mainly, I've noticed that "christians" mistreat LGBT people just because of one thing they don't agree with. As a Christian myself, I know that's not how real chrisitans are. I don't want any hate from this, I'm just sharing my thoughts (not spreading any hate either) I know that people can't control who their attracted to at all (some thing a lot of people need to understand) and that's why I don't shun people just because of that. Now, based on my belief system, people who are attracted to same genders should not act upon it, even though they can't help how they feel... But that doesn't mean I hate them or shun them if they do. Again, not trying to force a religion on anyone or try to manifest your minds... Just saying what I wish a lot of people would understand about christians. Lately we've had a bad reputation because of stupid people. Thanks for listening and I don't know you but I love you

People being rude from different opinions is driving me crazy, especially when they're dumb. Mainly, I've noticed that "christians" mistreat LGBT people just because of one thing they don't agree with. As a Christian myself, I know that's not how real chrisitans are. I don't want any hate from this, I'm just sharing my thoughts (not spreading any hate either) I know that people can't control who their attracted to at all (some thing a lot of people need to understand) and that's why I don't shun people just because of that. Now, based on my belief system, people who are attracted to same genders should not act upon it, even though they can't help how they feel... But that doesn't mean I hate them or shun them if they do. Again, not trying to force a religion on anyone or try to manifest your minds... Just saying what I wish a lot of people would understand about christians. Lately we've had a bad reputation because of stupid people. Thanks for listening and I don't know you but I love you

I hate having autism. I'd never hate anyone else for having autism, but I still hate myself for it, despite it being something I have no control over. I feel so ashamed of myself whenever I accidentally stim in public; I get worried people will be repulsed by my weirdness. I hate not understanding things that other people get so quickly and easily, I hate being delayed by at least a couple years in terms of emotional/mental development. I feel like everyone looks down on me, whether they like me or not, and I can't even blame them if they are. I don't think anyone outside my family could ever love me for who I am, I'm too awkward and gross and annoying. I just want to be normal.

Rant time (please note that I am in therapy for these things)

I transferred to an in-person school this year. I had previously been homeschooled since kindergarten, which really affected by social abilities. I absolutely LOVE being around people, but I have a hard time backing off and I feel like I'm being clingy all the time. People judge me a lot, calling me annoying, weird, weak, and they spread rumors about me, which I shouldn't let bother me because they aren't the worst lies in the world but I have borderline personality disorder and that kind of stuff destroys me. I feel like my friends only tolerate me or feel bad for me, because I'm always the one initiating conversation and it tends to be a short one anyways. I consider lots of people my best friends, but they've either said or showed through their actions that they care about other people more, which I totally get and they have a right to like who they want. But all I want is for somebody to call me their best friend, for someone to care about my issues and genuinely enjoy my company.
I also get really upset and jealous when other people gets better opportunities than me just because the adult knows my classmates better and they have more experience than me. I get the value of being able to depend on someone, but I pour my heart into everything that I do and I do feel like I have a natural ability to catch on quickly and have a little raw talent for things like performing arts, but nobody sees that. This kind of stuff makes me wonder if I really am worth it, if I can ever make it as a successful adult. I really want to, both for myself and to show the people in my life right now that I proved them wrong. I cry in the shower about these sorts of things. Am I overemotional?

I think I'm lesbian or bi and I want a girlfriend. Like a bestie I can snuggle and show compassion to. And I am pretty young. I also feel like I need a therapist. I mean like I just can't talk to people about stuff. My parents ( who really are great) are very over protective and I AND even like go on youtube. Also I'm Christian. My grandparents are homophobic and hate feminists and so do my parents who are not homophobic. As far as I can tell. They say I'm to young to date and I mean there not com aspletely wrong. But still. Also the kids at church and the younger kids at school are homophobic noisy and annoying. I also don't adore my body sometimes and just compare myself to everyone else. I mean I really hope you have a good day.okay? Okay. If you have any advice I'm all ears and thank you for listening.

I'm so f*****g scared to be alone. To be left behind. I'm the youngest in my friend group, and most of them will be graduating soon — that deeply terrifies me. I know we'll still keep in touch partially, but I know we'll grow apart too. The thought that I'll be left alone triggers my suicidal thoughts too, so!

I'm anxious and depressed because I can't get anything done and the deadlines are approaching but I can't get anything done because I'm anxious and depressed because I can't get anything done...

I’m tired of my tax dollars going to support people with children that either 1) HAVE NO BUSINESS HAVING THEM or 2) can’t afford them. If you’re not working; then you shouldn’t be having children. Don’t get me wrong there are legitimate reasons for needing help, and those I understand. Being a lazy POS is NOT one of them.

So my friends are on my climbing team, and it’s awesome. I get to hang out with them for an extra three hours a week and climb together. But they’re leaving the team, and I’m pretty sad about that. I have to actually talk to people. I don’t like people, let alone talking to them for extended periods of time. I feel like for the past two months all I’ve been doing is packing, unpacking, driving in a car and being in a hotel. I’m so f*****g done. I just want to stay at home, catch up on the lore, and play some minecraft. I had to travel again last weekend, we went to JMU, which was ok, but I had just gotten off a plane and wanted to go home. All of my friends got together, which never happens, but instead I had to go see my friend who is basically my sister, whom I love seeing, she’s awesome, but she had her friend over, whom I despise for personal reasons that I don’t feel like typing. I would have much rather seen my friends. And I have to live with my grandma for the next month. I don’t want to sound rude or anything, but I just don’t want to live with her. She doesn’t use my pronouns at all, and it just sucks to be misgendered constantly. She also is like realllly touchy, and I hate being touched. There are three people whom actively seek hugs from, which is my mom, my crush, and my best friend, but besides them I don’t like being touched. And kisses are the absolute worse and I loathe them. Also the wifi at grandmas house kinda sucks, but that’s not as important. BoredPanda has been weird lately, like it’s not showing me the nice normal screen, it just shows a white screen with black and blue text, and I can’t check my notifications which is obnoxious. Lastly, I ordered a thing in SEPTEMBER AND IT STILL HASNT ARRIVED. Anyway that was kind of long, sorry about that, and sorry if I sound rude/bratty/entitled or anything. Thanks for reading

"I sit here surrounded by the wreckage of all I wanted from life." I'm getting old, and although I've spent my life trying to make the world sustainable, I have no heir, and worry that all my tools, books, and projects will just be trashed. I should be a real asset to some young partners, but I can't find any.

honestly I don’t even know if people actually like me or just plain hate me ahaha, my paranoia is killing me from the inside but if I die how will my internet friends know :/

Hi I suffer from anxiety and depression. Furthermore I am extremely sucidal.

I go to a school which is a ‘special’ school where teacher are supposed to be more capable at dealing with issues. My Science teacher has not been helping. This happened a week ago.

Me to my friend :Can you tell me what revision resources your brother used as he did so well in his GCSEs.
My Science Teacher: How dare you insult me. You are abnoxious child who has no idea what they are doing.
Me: my apologies for saying something that you deamed offensive but it was not directed to you or at you.
My Science teacher: Get out of my classroom.
Me: Of course but not because you order me to but because you make my life hell.

She later sent an email to my form tutor calling me rude and obnoxious is this true