Hey, Pandas! Tell Us Your Problems, Please (Closed)

Well, I am trying to figure out if I have anxiety. I think I have some sort of social anxiety (as mild as it may be), because being with big crowds makes me extremely nervous, but then this just came up out of nowhere: I usually walk to the luchroom with my friends. Today, I walked to the lunchroom by myself since I had to stay behind and clean up the gym (We had just finished up PE). So I buy my lunch and I go check outside (we usually sit outside on the patio). It was really wet so I assumed they had sat inside. I walked around for about 10 minutes trying to find them. I couldn't and I started to panic. It was a stupid thing to panic over... I mean all that had happened was that I lost sight of my friends. I started thinking if they even noticed if I was gone or if they ditched me on purporse (they didn't by the way). SO I sat at a table with a lesbian couple who didn't even acknowledge my presense (One was my friend that I had known forever who doesn't even say hi to me anymore :'( ). I was still panicking, and felt like I wanted to cry, and my hands were kinda shaky. I KNOW it was stupid to be worried over something as small as that. But eventually my friends found me and all was well. Aparently they had gone looking for me after I hadn't shown up after awhile (they did dit outside and had wet butts, so, suckers, am I right?). I honestly DON'T know what that was. That has happened before, but NOTHING like that. Anyways there's my problems.

I think I’m depressed and I don’t know why. I’m early in a good mood and I get sad for no reason or for a tiny reason a lot. I don’t want to tell my parents because they will probably just say it’s puberty. That might be it but I also have a crush on this girl (I’m a girl) and if they talk about puberty I’m worried they may ask me if I have any crushes and I’m not ready to come out to them yet. I don’t know what to do I’m having a hard time staying positive and playing video games does cheer me up but my mom always says I’m spending to much time on a screen. What do I do?

I posted lots of bored panda topics like comics, funny stuff, etc but Bored Panda hasn't published any of my blogs? Anybody knows why? ;*(