Al Martini
Community Member
I am a misfit and I've always known that. But my philosophy is "If the cake doesn't bake correctly then just call it a pudding and enjoy it anyways." I wish I lived in a world that does it like that also. My world surrounding me has so much "soap opera" that I just can't fit in. I look humans in the eye when i speak and I'm a very good listener, too. I take pride in my sincerity. I simply wish the traumatic memories didn't return... because I'm losing the me that I once was a few months ago. I want tranquil and happy 'me' back again and nobody seems to even care about all my suffering... specially my family that has so much to hide from the world. Thanks for listening. That means a lot to me and my tired heart.
Al Martini · commented on 7 posts
almost 5 years ago
I thank you for your kind words. I hope you find peace. You were abused. You didn't abuse yourself and don't ever need to either! When the sorrow comes, please try to recall my words of hope. YOU DIDN'T DO ANYTHING, THEY DID. Now that was worth yelling at you! Hello from Maine. Thank you for your love and prayers. God is with me right now or maybe His angels are. I have yet to share the vivid dream I had after I was raped by those men, too. Someday soon though. Hello from Maine... such a pretty day here today. The air tastes sweet to me on days like these.
I would love having a reporter listen to my story patiently, and them allowing my experiences to be shared with the people. But like I've said before, they only want to talk sweetly with the children, and mostly girls at that. I would need to dissolve that mentality for them. Maybe a male reported would here me out. Maybe an abused male reporter at that! Hello from Maine.
Al Martini · upvoted 6 items
almost 5 years ago
I'm so very sorry this happened to you . I went through an incident went I was 5 perpetrated by an older cousin nothing as awful as what you went through but it still haunts me 35 years later. I hope you get the help you need and I send you love and prayers for you . Be safe x
;( I'm lost for words. I just hope one day you find the silver lining you deserve <3
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almost 5 years ago