What's Something You Feel Guilty For?

Wanting to watch society fall apart since real, raw, painful change doesn’t seem to come.

I feel guilty for being so broken. I should be perfectly happy. I have great friends, most of my family is wonderful, I make good grades, my family has plenty of money and I get a lot of the things I wan. I'm still not happy though. So many people have worse problems than me and yet I keep making a big deal out of mine. Maybe I never really had any friends until 6th grade. Maybe I was replaced countless times by so-called friends. Maybe I've been insulted and manipulated. Maybe all of it happened before I even turned 13. It shouldn't be that big of a deal. Other people have lost parents and siblings and best friends. Other people fail all their classes and have no one. My problems shouldn't matter as much as they do. I shouldn't cry myself to sleep every night just because I've been lonely before. I shouldn't be this heartbroken over it since I was just a kid. I shouldn't make such a big deal out of this stuff, but I am. My issues are so insignificant and yet I can't get over them.