If you’re reading this, you’ve probably experienced that “moment.” That moment is when you start to wake up and realize you created a ‘shit show” of a life. That moment, when you realized you were sucked into society’s game. That moment, you realize you’re responsible for all the self-inflicted pain and suffering. That moment, you realize there is more to life than living in survival mode, divulging in the ordinary existence you created to be accepted by society and loved without condition, although people put conditions on loving you, weird, huh? Oh, there’s more, that moment you understand when God, the Universe, Higher Power, High Self, taps you are the shoulder and tells you to “Wake the Fuck Up,” you are the co-creator of your life, this existence, this moment, this realm and the other realms, there is no inbetween, there is no such thing as empty space, and everything we have created is from an energetic frequency of our mind, emotions, and energy. It’s your own energetic frequency that your life is the “cluster fuck” that it is. Well, you’re probably wondering what “this moment” is called, right? It’s called the moment, you wake “the fuck” up and start co-creating the life you desire, it’s called a beautiful, amazing, transcending, Awakening.
At this point, you're probably asking yourself, “Damn, how does she know my life is a “shit- show?”, “Is she a guru?”, “Is she a psychic?” Who knows, I don’t really like to put myself in a box, but I’m a fucking Warrior Godness. I’ve walked the path, lit the match, burned the bridges, and dropped Napalm bombs on my own life. I’ve laughed, cried, grieved, screamed, prayed, while my “perceived '' beautiful life was unraveling right before my eyes. I’ve used sex, realtionships, drugs, food and everything inbetween as coping mechanisms, simply because I didn’t want to deal with the internal war brewing inside my soul.
At one point, I was so utterly self destructive, I prayed for God to end my life. I wasn't going to commit sucide, but I did want to die. In those moments, I prayed “Jesus, Take the Wheel”, but definitely not like the beautiful country song. I’ve been in the darkest of places with a smile on my face, pretending everything was “peachy.” The internal conflict and pain was so agonizing, I didn’t care about life, I didn’t care if I lived or died; I suppressed years of anger, depression, anxiety, and despair, until it finally surfaced revealing the wounded parts of myself yearning to be healed. This was my shadow staring at me. This was my shadow taking a stance in my life that I could no longer ignore, run or hide. It was my shadow, showing me the “percieved” reckoning of my “cluster fuck” of a life was actually, the first step of a miraculous awakening. The awakening, my soul was searching and begging for, the light at the end of the tunnel, the end to myself inflicted suffering, the beautiful beginning of my healing journey.
I’m sharing this with you, so you know you’re a warrior, you’re light, you’re heard, you’re seen, you’re loved, you’re beautiful, don’t give up! All the powers that be: God, the universe, your higher-self, higher-power, whatever your belief system is working for you, not against you! You’re not your thoughts and sometimes you pick up on the thoughts of others since we all can tap into the same universal consciousness.
And yes, you might have created a “shit show,” but since you're such a powerful co-creator your life can change in this very moment by embracing all parts of yourselves, the wounded, the healed, the unique, the weird layers that make you the beautiful being that you’re. Life always happens for you, not to you. Even, the “cluster fuck” of the life you created up to this moment happened for you. The lessons you’ve learned are feedback that you were not in alignment with your authentic self.
So, what is alignment? Alignment is when your mind, emotions, and energy are synchronized and flowing together like a beautiful river. Here’s a further breakdown:
Mind: consist of your conscious (what we are aware of) and subconscious mind (information processing). It affects everything we do! This is where patterns, identities, limiting beliefs, rules like to hide. We are unaware it’s there, until we shine a light on it. Our conscious and subconscious minds are not always in agreement and it trickles down to our everyday life and internal conflict. We have the power to control our minds and rewire our brains, so on the contrary, we are a powerful species.
Emotions: according to Dr. Jill Bolte Taylor (a Harvard brain scientist) it only takes 90 seconds to identify and process an emotion. Yet, we hold on to them for years and wonder why we’re so sick as a species- don’t worry, I’ve been guilty of it, too!. A smart and talented lady recently told me, emotions are emotions, you can’t always make sense of it, so don’t try, it’s a time waster. Our analytical brains try to figure it out. Instead, you can start to recognize the emotion, honor it, and release it. Release the emotions into the ethers, wrap it up in a love bubble, write a letter and burn it, and sometimes you honor that you’re not ready to release (that’s when I dig deep). Sometimes our shadows serve us until we are ready to heal. It’s all in Divine timing, so show yourself grace, you deserve it!
Energy: well, we all know everything is made up of energy and scientists cannot fully understand it, neither can I, but it’s our Spirit/Soul/Higher Self/God, Mother Nature, emotions, bodies, it’s everywhere. You can feel it, but can’t always see it. That’s what is so beautiful and majestic about it! There is no such thing as an empty space, everything has a frequency, our soul, nature, matter, everything that makes up this world has an energetic frequency. So, ask yourself “what do I want my frequency to be?” Well, if you want to manifest a beautiful life, let’s start finding out what brings you joy, peace and excitement.
So, when your soul chooses to awaken, you start the journey of self-mastery, you start to understand these are the sexy ingredients for alignment, it’s a synchronicity of all goodness life has to offer. I feel, we humans make it seem way more difficult than it needs to be. It’s simple, we only have one life to live, why not live it? Why not figure out your authentic self and what you really want out of life? Why not seek peace?
All you have to do is put one foot in front of the other and strive to be 1 percent better, everyday and before you know it, you will be on your beautiful island.
