Vent Here

lalaaallalaalallalalalalalalalalalalalal life is mid I wanna end it I lost 20 lbs for no reAson the weight just dipped and was like mmmm no bye I don’t Like this a lot guys I wish I had friends more yall like yeah. I keep getting made fun of my stupid sounding accent. it sounds southern but also French lol haha haha haha. I don’t like thisssssssss

i feel awesome. and terrible. so am i terribly awesome, or awesomely terrible. i don’t know.

I hate everything. I don't want to die, but I don't want to live. I don't know what to do.

Ayeeee. I f*****g hate my life :) my mom’s birthday was yesterday (I didn’t sign her card obv) but I was so tempted to give her a Mother’s Day card bc she isn’t one. My friend didn’t respond for two days when I was tryna talk for the first time, so now I’m venting here. My mom is an a*****e. She f*****g abused me and my sibilings and then left. She is taking money from my dad, making us short on money. She has no life, she has had several boyfriends in 3 months, (note that her and my dad aren’t divorced yet) she only f*****g cares about herself. She thinks she’s the s**t all because she is skinny now. I hate her. I’m sorry but it’s the truth. I was taken away and put into foster care when I was 9. Her and my dad adopted me, and of course she leaves and now I have no mother. She pushed my little brother causing him to fall over and hurt his ear very badly and she laughed. He literally had to go to the Er bc of it. This isn’t even the worst or even the half. I hate her. There, now you guys don’t have to pester me when I say I wanna die. I said the majority of it right here. :) if you wanna talk you can reply to this I’m open loves

Piece of advice here: There is no such thing as a stupid reason to survive or to stop hurting yourself.
The only real reason I stopped cutting myself was that it is too hot to wear sleeves in the summer, and I didn't want anyone to know I'd self-harmed. And so it's been a few months since I've hurt myself. I can't say for certain I'll never do it again, and there are some times that I want to, but I found a reason to stop.

I want to cut off my ankle and jump off a bridge or find a less painful way to die. Maybe a car crash or smthn? Idk anyways, I despise my body, I'm a selfish piece of s**t

I don’t know man. I’m simultaneously going through too much and nothing at the same time. I’m more tired than ever despite sleeping more than usual and I’ve developed bags under my eyes. I’m mentally tired as well and I can’t concentrate on anything anymore. I’m distancing myself from everyone because they don’t deserve so much trouble. I’m just worried about everything in general and my energy levels are dropping day by day. I’m overlooking so many things and it feels like a huge struggle to just survive for one day. Everyday I feel so tired because of all the effort I’m putting into staying alive and breathing for one moment more. I want to let go because of how tired it’s making me but I also want to hold on for a little longer because I want things to improve. I’m not getting straight answers to any of my questions and I’m confused and disoriented most of the time

Guys I’ve said this before and I’ll say it again:

BP drama suuuuuuuucks

Ok so I have DID and basically I have multiple people inside me and it sucks to see all these fakers and s**t and the fact the think it’s cool blows my mind it’s from trama people!!! And it’s so hard to have relationships with it it’s so damn hard to do anything and have to hide from some people like all I want is friends who don’t mind it who take care when the littles are out and fronting like it’s sucks a*s and people don’t understand that like I just want someone to talk to I want friends yk

idk man, life just feels very sluggish and slow, I've been struggling in school and cant pay attention in class, even now, i'm currently writing this in my geography class, not just that though, the relationship with me and my boyfriend is very unsteady, i wanna talk to him always but we can never talk, doing long distance sucks already but sucks even more when you cant play games together or do any online activities other than talking, im worried i will loose him because finding people who are also looking for a gay relationship is really hard for me

i just wanna go to sleep and never wake up :(

My ED is coming back and haven’t eaten in days and not thrown it up

The downvotes are insane. A piece of me dies evrytime I see I’ve been downvoted. It ruins my self esteem. It hurts..

GUNZO needs to have a Snickers

IF YOU EVER MENTION MY FAMILY AS A WAY TO DISS ME I WILL DRAG YOU TO HELL WITH ME, AND MAKE IT MY PERSONAL MISSION TO GET YOU BANNED FROM THIS SITE. THATS THE MOST F#$@ED UP THING YOU CAN SAY. ESPECIALLY AS A GROWN @#$ ADULT TO A TEENAGER. LIKE. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU. Call me a piece of sh@#. Call me an a-hole. But mentioning my family? Why stoop THAT LOW? Ik this is gonna get downvoted and you’ll ignore me and call me an idiot, but idrc. That’s F$&#ED UP. I don’t even stoop that low. Like the hell is wrong with you? It bring you joy telling someone that their family hates them? ESPECIALLY AS A MOTHER. I’ve been called a lot of things, but that INSULT. THAT. ONE. INSULT. Is the worst I have EVER gotten. And I’ll remain anonymous but you all sure as hell probably know who I’m talking about.

*sigh* I’m gonna try and do this peacefully. Val. I hate you so FCKIN much. And you sure as hell don’t like me. What you said about my family was fcked up and not cool whatsoever. But I think it would be better if we just avoided each other and not commented on each other’s stuff. I’m trying to do this the peaceful way so no arguments occur. If you agree to this, simple comment you agree under this. But if you want to continue to push my buttons then so be it. Just know I tried to resolve this peacefully. I’ll post this a few times so you’re more likely to see it. I’ll also take the hate message out of my bio when I get a confirmed answer, that you’ll agree to leave me alone if I leave you alone. Goes for downvotes too. I don’t downvote and report you, and you won’t downvote and report me. You’re literally the only person on this site I have an actual problem with. So if we could resolve this “issue” than that'd be great.