What hammered it into my head that I loved him - My now partner came over & carried my beloved 75 lb old collie up & down the stairs to my condo 2x a day to toilet for months, insisted on driving us to that awful appointment with the vet, stayed with me during euthanasia & actually was tearful, as an emotionally avoidant man & collected his ashes as he knew it would be horrendous for me, then spent weeks sitting on the floor getting my new rescue to not be afraid of him.. I am a very lucky woman ….believe me I know it!