Term stillbirth.
There’s never a good way to tell someone their baby [passed away] before it could even be born. No combination of words makes the delivery any easier. And you know when you see there’s no heartbeat on the ultrasound. You scan again because you gaslight yourself into hoping you’re wrong, even though you’re not new to scanning babies and the heart is obviously not moving. You add color flow to prove to yourself that what you’re seeing is the truth. And then you have to say it even though everyone in the room knows it. It’s not official until you say the words.
Those screaming sobs will always stay with me.
There’s never a good way to tell someone their baby [passed away] before it could even be born. No combination of words makes the delivery any easier. And you know when you see there’s no heartbeat on the ultrasound. You scan again because you gaslight yourself into hoping you’re wrong, even though you’re not new to scanning babies and the heart is obviously not moving. You add color flow to prove to yourself that what you’re seeing is the truth. And then you have to say it even though everyone in the room knows it. It’s not official until you say the words.
Those screaming sobs will always stay with me.