I asked for the nurses stethoscope. It was too small for me and it hurt my ears terribly, though I couldn’t really feel it. I held my son while they disconnected him. And I held him and I listened to his heartbeat get quieter and quieter. It faded away until I just couldn’t hear it any longer. It wasn’t a hard stop, it was a fade.
He was covered in bruises. Hydropic. Neonatal Hemochromatosis. It was a hard three days, but those last moments were the worst of moments. I wouldn’t wish them on my worst enemy.
He was covered in bruises. Hydropic. Neonatal Hemochromatosis. It was a hard three days, but those last moments were the worst of moments. I wouldn’t wish them on my worst enemy.