30 People Honestly Share What Is Their Most Toxic Trait

I procrastinate to a concerning degree as well. I'm starting to think it's because whatever line of work I got myself into is something I hate so so much, and that's why it's so dreadful to start any project, because like, I have no problem being productive when it comes to my hobbies, it's just school/work/chores that I procrastinate on.

I talk about myself way too much and don't ask about the other person nearly enough.

Probably not my most toxic trait but definitely the one that's giving me issues at the moment.

I'm very impatient with people and I tend to be very blunt. Sometimes in a rude way but I see that as justified. There's a lot of sh*t society sees as normal or somewhat normal and I'm just sick of it. I don't want to be nice anymore and I don't want to be patient. I just want it to stop. I'm very direct about it and usually I don't care if I'm not being nice.

I hold grudges basically forever and I hate it. To put things in perspective with a little example, a childhood friend one time did something mean to me when we were 7. We kept talking after that, but whenever we did I would remember that day with ridiculous detail like it was etched with a laser on my brain. I finally let go of that grudge one day when we were casually remembering childhood moments and she remembered that day and apologized. About 20 years later.

I'm very firm and stubborn at times about how I view the world in general. I like to call myself a realist, but I also understand that's exactly what a pessimist says.

I've begun categorizing things into 'you problems' and 'me problems.' I can control my actions and reactions, and that's it. I can't control anything else. If someone is being an a**hole and upsets me, then that's a them problem and they need to work on that part of themselves. If they're acting with good intentions and it's an accident, then it's a me problem if I hold that against them. Lifting the responsibility off of myself for the actions of others and only establishing accountability for myself really has reduced my stress and guilt.

I have a hard time accepting other people's limitations when it comes to mental health because I was never able to 'indulge' my own. I can't stop the heavy resentment and judgment I feel toward my roommates and friends when they hit the limits of what they can do. When there's a pile of dishes in the sink that my roommate hasn't gotten to because she doesn't have the energy, I get frustrated rather than sympathetic. When my friend talks about how paralyzed they are with phone anxiety I judge them for not getting over it and making the call even though I feel the same.

I've had severe depression and anxiety since I was 13 and suffered from Borderline Personality Disorder since college. I was the only child of a single mother and she didn't have time to be sympathetic. I learned to push through and function at all costs to myself. Laying in bed or not performing as expected wasn't an option I was given. Doing anything to ease my own pain wasn't on the table.

That mentality and the way I grew up fundamentally damaged me. The BPD is a direct result of that. Learning to be easy on myself and accept my own limitations, as well as those of others, is something I work on in therapy a lot. I just can't shift my mindset from the way I was raised into a more human approach to myself and others, and it turns me into a massive as*hole in moments where I should be my most understanding.

Internalized homophobia. I went from refusing to believe I was gay to not wanting anyone else to know to still not really wanting people to know and not wanting to be “that gay.” Some gays got bullied or at least ridiculed and I made sure that wasn’t me.

I can hold a grudge a long time

I ghost people without reason. If I don’t feel to keep in touch with some people (not bc they’re bad or some sort), I won’t bother to reply their chat at least for a week (or longer if the chat went drowned) unless if it’s very important/urgent.