Patience is something that I personally struggle with every single day of my life.
Years ago after a traumatic incident I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder, depression and PTSD. I also suffered from severe anxiety and crippling panic attacks. These days I still have anxiety and my borderline will never go away but I'm managing it all quite well and keeping my crazy under control (most of the time) while growing as a person. I'm also learning quite a fucking lot about patience.
I've got five kids ages 13, 9, 4 and 2 1/2 (yes they are twins), two full-time jobs that I enjoy, two cats, one dog, one fish and a husband. My personal issues get in the way of who I really am and how I want to show up to my family and the rest of the world sometimes. There are moments where I dislike who I can be and the conscious choices I make because I know better; I know I can be better and I WANT to be that better person. It irritates the hell out of me.
So as of late I've been choosing to be more patient and I won't lie and say it's not a real fucking struggle some days, some moments in fact. My three toddlers really push me to the edge at times.
What I feel is most important though is that I choose to come back from the edge. I choose to make different positive choices. I choose to take calming centered breaths and consciously choose what's going to happen next in my story and change what could have been a negative interaction.
You have the ability to make these changes in your life too. This mindset can be learned and applied in ANY situation and ANYONE is capable of making these powerful changes to their life.
So in order to stay in align with your own personal morals and values choose to be more conscious about your choices. Make the choice to make some small yet very powerful changes to your own life which ultimately will impact your entire soul and being plus family, friends, and others you come across on your journey.
"Patience is wanting to slow down and take in all the small details of life to enjoy. Patience is taking a few breaths before you speak especially when feeling some anger within yourself. Patience is taking the time to open up your own eyes to how you are truly showing up to everyone you're coming into contact with on any given day. Patience is not taking any negative interaction with anyone else personally because realistically it has nothing to do with you. Patience is realizing that you can help those people instead of responding negatively in return to them. These changes of personal choice ultimately send out positive karma into the Universe for you or anyone and anything else to soak up; the positive energy gets absorbed by other energy and in return raises the vibrations of all. Allowing true love to be present where we are all one and the same. One energy, one love."
- Nicole Gleason
This is the time. This is YOUR time just like it is mine. Let us join together, hand in hand with the Universe and Mother Earth and consciously choose to be better people and enjoy this human experience through more practiced patience.
Oh, but don't forget to just say fuck it some moments. It's never too late to choose to start again, to try again, to do whatever the fuck you want but with a more positive outlook seeing all the opportunities you were missing before. Just make sure the new choices align with your future vision of yourself and your life. In doing that ANYTHING is possible.
Patience is powerful.
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