No Regrets (Just You)
I can take responsibility for my choices
You are supposed to forgive and forget
To move on, to let go, to accept
But I can’t seem to forgive myself, only regret
Wearing my heart on my sleeves
Has stretched them down to my feet,
If I’m not careful I’ll get tangled and trip and bleed
I need to get these words out of my head
I need the satisfaction of something complete, I need release
It hurts to now be on the other side
I apologize to all the boys in the wake behind
You took a naive girl and transformed her, she is a woman
If you told me from the beginning
That it would be over before we really began
Told me that we’d never meet and I would be responsible,
That this is all because of me, I wouldn’t believe..
I feel like a cheater
That no matter what I do or say
I cannot explain or redeem myself
I acted like a child and it cost me dearly
It cost me so many possibilities..
You gave me so many gifts, in the shape of a key
Opening doors I didn’t even know were locked
You inspired me, to create anew.. to write
But I can’t right the wrong I did to you
I’ve notoriously broken hearts but this time I broke my own
Now I wear it like an iron crown, so heavy on my mind
I opened my heart, not just to you, but to myself as well
I am beautiful.. I am brave.. I am ready
Or so I thought, I was impatient and I walked away
What did I gain this time? Pride.. Dignity.. Liberation?
What’s the difference, I missed out on so much more
Maybe I can move on with another, but my hearts just not in it
I know I want more now and I’ll be ready next time
I’m sorry you got caught up in my journey
I wish I could take it back, that you were left unscathed
But I’m a different person now, for the better
I only hope you find someone who’s beautiful with soul
Who knows what she has and never lets you go
