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Pandas with noise sensitivities, any recommendations for esr defenders or earplugs for when im in loud environments and overwhelmed?

hey guys! how r yall doing

ive been losing interest in stuff and staying in my room more. maybe im just tired or something

have been wondering about the future and if i will be in a good place by then

have been missing the past as just an oblivious kid who's biggest concern was tv shows and stupid friend group drama

also been wondering how the afterlife is like. ik, ik maybe its all just a black void, or we turn into nothingness. but i want to believe that there is something out there. i hope there is

damn that was deep

it feels like i’m giving up. i used to think a ton of things were cool and i had so much motivation and energy but now i don’t. i told my mom and she said i was overreacting. i also get overwhelmed really easily all of a sudden and to be honest? it’s kind of scary. i don’t want to end my life, i just want this chapter in it to be over.

i also feel like a failure b/c my friends don’t talk to me as much unless it’s just us (me and one of them). they always hang out together and don’t even talk to me. i think they either don’t like me anymore and are phasing me out of their friend group or i’m overthinking it.

I tried to kms a couple weeks ago and I thought that once I got to therapy it will all get better, but lately, it's been getting worse again. I feel very lost, and I have no idea what to do about it. Every time I think about my future, I just want to end it all. I don't know how to stop faking being happy.
Sorry, that was depressing...