Hey Panda’s, You Can Have Your Weekly Vent/Therapy Session Here With ✨me✨

I’m not doing very good. My mom banned me from hanging out with my co-worker outside of work, and she’s also my best friend, and I think I might have a crush on her so that stings, you know?
She’s the only one who can tolerate my clingy-ness and seems to like being around me in general.
My sh has been getting worse. I thought I was able to stop, but I couldn’t. I’m even using hairties, by pulling them and letting them snap back and give me welts. You can even do that one in front of people, unlike cvtting.
I’m so tired.
i’m so sick of all the bs with my parents. Like, sometimes they’re really cool and great and chill, then other times they’re so strict about the dumbest things!!

Yay! I need to.

Last week was wild. I am usually a coordinated person, but I spilled food/drink on myself three days in a row. Two of the days it was on my work clothing.

Then I found out my sister is dealing with depression and she has been mad at me all week because I "annoy her" right now. I know it's not her fault, but I don't know how to help because everything I do triggers her.

Then my brother's girlfriend dumped him. He REALLY liked her, to the point I think he was considering marriage in the future. None of it was his fault, she just didn't feel a "spark."
She's been one of his best friends for probably 5 years now.

And then to top it all off we found out that our church was going through a big issue and people will be leaving. It's very painful because I loved everyone, but some people were enforcing rules on other people that the Bible doesn't even say. So that is a no.

And though all that is the ongoing stress because one of my best friends is kinda acting interested in me now, and I don't know what to say or do. I do like him a lot, but I love him too much to rush a relationship and mess it up. So it's very awkward.

Thanks for listening.🤗

I got glasses, because I can barely see anything that’s far away from me. And I recently made peace with an old bully of mine, but she wanted that to remain in the past, so I decided to finally let my trauma heal. Also I got a pair of ripped jeans, I have wanted ripped jeans for a few years now but I thought I could never pull them off, but I was wrong, I pull them off effortlessly, and they look great on me.

yes i could really use a therapy session. thank you.

it’s currently the end of the school year, only a few more months to go. now normally, this would be a pleasant thing, but this time i’m feeling more scared than excited.

there are two clear reasons which i’m aware about but not sure how to deal with. the first reason is because my older sister, who is a senior, will be graduating school and next year shell be going to college (hopefully).

yes i’m happy for her, but i’ve been depending on her for soooo many things. for one, there’s this girl who had left the school before but she was my friend. note that i said WAS…turns out she was toxic and ruined my life and self-confidence completely. she ran over me so many times and i just let her. i was in denial of her not acting like a friend would because she gave me validation. but after SHE ditched ME (which was supposed to be the opposite because i did so many kind things to her while she was just faking it the whole three years we were friends in), my older sister was the only thing that stopped me from literally killing myself. she helped me heal more and more every day and now i’ve completely recovered from that “breakup”.

but next year that toxic friend is coming back to my school and, according to her, she’ll “ruin my life”. and i have no idea how i’ll put up with her and i already know she’ll be bullying me and pushing me all over the place while i’d just let her. and the worst part about that is, my older sister won’t be there to help.

my life would LITERALLY be ruined then.

what should i do??

I’m new to Bored Panda (just joined today May 10th) so idk how this works really.

My best friend who I used to talk to all the time just got her first boyfriend and doesn’t talk to me very much anymore at school, and she also has her phone taken away so I can’t text her. Also another one of my friends just went through a breakup and he’s been cutting so I’ve been trying to get him to stop and another one of my friends who I don’t know that well possibly tried to overdose (at least that’s what I gathered from his texts) and I feel like I don’t have any emotions except for anxiety and something is funny. laugh. I’ve been forgetting stuff and I normally have a good memory and my grades are going down and I don’t know what to do. I can’t talk to anyone who I know in real life about anything because as mentioned before, my best friend doesn’t talk to me, and I have no one else I’m close enough to that I can tell to. Sorry for all this, it probably makes no sense but I hope it does. I probably sound like an idiot. Sorry for my horrible punctuation. And because I’m new, I kinda want to make friends but it’s fine if no one wants to be my friend.

Two of my friends are fighting, and one of them doesn't have anyone to sit with so I always end up sitting with him rather than my group of friends(who I would rather sit with), and I don't know what to do.

Also, is there a way I could join the therapy group? If you guys have too many people, then it's fine, but I love helping people.

i just hit 7 days clean from sh but it's getting harder and harder not to relapse. my depression is getting worse and i almost cried in front of people the other day when my librarian got mad at me for something (and i'm scared to go in there tomorrow cause i'm working at the desk this week) and i've not been getting a lot of sleep and i noticed dark circles for the first time last night and i think i have a crush on my best friend and i'm scared to start wearing shorts to school but i know i have to since it's getting hot and i have a swimming trip this week and i don't want anyone to see the scars on my legs and i have to leave bp for the summer soon and i'm so scared i won't make it without people to support me. i can't come out to my parents i think that'll just make it worse. cause then they'll know they're deadnaming and misgendering me and still do it. and so yeah. and i'm worried i'm not going to make theatre productions class and varsity choir for the high school i'm going to next year where i won't know anyone but my ultra-straight church friend who thinks i'm cishet and i keep wanting to tell her but i haven't been able to. and um yeah sorry that was a lot..

Gosh where to start.
I broke it off with my fiancé because his son said some rude things about me, and my fiancé said NOTHING. Not then, not later. Now he wants to fight that he did the right thing. Huh? You are announcing our engagement but you are incapable of DEFENDING MY HONOR? So I’m kinda spinning out. Did I do the right thing?
I found out my kid is on the spectrum. Not a huge surprise, but we are already dealing with some severe eye issues as well as ADHD.
Really up in the air, do I stay in the area I am, my kid knows the school and kids, or do I move somewhere more liberal where we will fit in better?
I always wanted to be a Mom, and LD (little dude) is my greatest joy.
But I didn’t plan on being a single mom and sometimes I feel like I’m just not enough; he deserves more. Trying to stay positive but it is ALL SO MUCH.

I'm extremely stressed out about my grades, to the point of depression. I'm a perfectionist and can't stand to get something besides all A's. I know I might seem like a spoiled nerd, but I'm really just a stressed kid. Thank you for listening to my vent.

Less therapy and more psa my former bf is aromantic and broke up with me on Thursday. I'm a bit f****d up but he's still as perfect and helpful as usual and I'll be alright eventually

I feel really bad bc mini is upset with me and she is pretending that she is not. If you read this mini, I’m sorry, I didn’t want to make you feel bad. I really didn’t mean to hurt you or make you upset. If you want to talk about it, I’m here.