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I suffer from severe mental health problems, I struggle just to keep breathing most days. I have PTSD, Bi-polar, general anxiety, severe depressive disorder, borderline personality disorder, and the oh so rare Dissociative identity disorder, with Dissociative amnesia. I have tried ALMOST every treatment available, and have been on meds for years, yet still I have had suicide attempts. I am just so tired... SOUL tired of hoping beyond hope one of them would help, but always been let down so many times. I have reached out for help, because honestly I don't want to die, I just don't want to live this way, honestly it is unbearable suffering. I still feel like I have been beaten down by the mental health system...
So for years I have been watching as hallucinotnic research has taken shape. From the beginning stages where scientiste posed the question "Why did we stop in the 60s? The research was going well, till the flower children stopped it in its tracks. Let's try again." to "Well it works, we watched it on a MRI light up all the centers of the brain, and creates new paths making the brain connect in ways never thought possible. With medication resistant depression, and PTSD" To "What else can this do?"
I remember in my stupid experimental teenage years, I had tired LSD and mushrooms a few time, and every time I felt changed for the better fo AWHILE.
The analogy I heard was "Think of a snowy hill that you have been sledding down for awhile, eventually it forms ruts where the sled goes over and over again; that is the neural pathways of someone with trauma. With Hallucinotnics you finally put a new layer of "snow" to create new healthy neural pathways." It felt like finally I have maybe I finally found my answer...
So signed up for every trial I could get my hands on, absolutely willing to travel anywhere in the world to do them. Everytime I was once again let down. Reason being that there is actually TOO MUCH wrong with me to be accepted for the studies at this point. They needed people with diagnoses of only what they where researching. It got to the point that even my family was on board with this, thinking it would help and offered to grow mushrooms for me. That is not what I want that though, I want the guided therapy that goes along with it so my mind can form the RIGHT paths. So I have just waited for years for it to become widely available to the public...
I suffer from severe mental health problems, I struggle just to keep breathing most days. I have PTSD, Bi-polar, general anxiety, severe depressive disorder, borderline personality disorder, and the oh so rare Dissociative identity disorder, with Dissociative amnesia. I have tried ALMOST every treatment available, and have been on meds for years, yet still I have had suicide attempts. I am just so tired... SOUL tired of hoping beyond hope one of them would help, but always been let down so many times. I have reached out for help, because honestly I don't want to die, I just don't want to live this way, honestly it is unbearable suffering. I still feel like I have been beaten down by the mental health system...
So for years I have been watching as hallucinotnic research has taken shape. From the beginning stages where scientiste posed the question "Why did we stop in the 60s? The research was going well, till the flower children stopped it in its tracks. Let's try again." to "Well it works, we watched it on a MRI light up all the centers of the brain, and creates new paths making the brain connect in ways never thought possible. With medication resistant depression, and PTSD" To "What else can this do?"
I remember in my stupid experimental teenage years, I had tired LSD and mushrooms a few time, and every time I felt changed for the better fo AWHILE.
The analogy I heard was "Think of a snowy hill that you have been sledding down for awhile, eventually it forms ruts where the sled goes over and over again; that is the neural pathways of someone with trauma. With Hallucinotnics you finally put a new layer of "snow" to create new healthy neural pathways." It felt like finally I have maybe I finally found my answer...
So signed up for every trial I could get my hands on, absolutely willing to travel anywhere in the world to do them. Everytime I was once again let down. Reason being that there is actually TOO MUCH wrong with me to be accepted for the studies at this point. They needed people with diagnoses of only what they where researching. It got to the point that even my family was on board with this, thinking it would help and offered to grow mushrooms for me. That is not what I want that though, I want the guided therapy that goes along with it so my mind can form the RIGHT paths. So I have just waited for years for it to become widely available to the public...
That time is here and now. Finally I can seek treatment through ketamine therapy...
I HAVE A CONSULT APPOINTMENT TOMORROW! Everyone pray for me that the doctors think it will help.
I HAVE A CONSULT APPOINTMENT TOMORROW! Everyone pray for me that the doctors think it will help.
If you want to know more about hallucinotnic therapy Netflix has a great episode of "The mind explained" on it.
Thanks for reading everyone!