Hey Pandas, What Was Your Worst Day This Year? (Closed)

Probaly today. I had to get my car fixed, again. Second time this year. Fist time cost me 700€ and now 600€. I had finally organized everything at school (resceduled exams, organized extra trainings for students, etc) when the news of school closings came, right after school was finished and all students were sent home already. It was only the peak of a bad week in a bad month in the worst year so far(remember how we all hated on 2019? So I'm not gonna call it the worst year ever, who knows what awaits us).

When my ex-boyfriend forgot about me, hooked up with another guy, and ghosted me.

When these two girls keep misgendering me on purpose and calling me by my dead name.

Oh wow so many, day lockdown was announced l, the day my parents told us they were fleeting a divorce, the day my pet bird Sky on of the only pure things in my life died, the day my long term boyfriend said he never loved me, the day I was diagnosed with iron deficiency and anxiety. I could go on

The day my chicken died.
The day I found out I broke a bone.
A tie between the 2.

Hmmm there’s not just one but here is the worst highlight reel, I was told my Father was going to die in January after a second heart attack (thankfully he didn’t but imagine the stress) I was threatened by my work they would fire me if I didn’t come in a few hours a week outside my working from home to do “essential” work (opening mail) despite the country being plunged into lockdown & I should have been at home, I developed anxiety, i hadn’t seen my mother in 5 months & when restrictions were eased, she couldn’t care less to see me, we had a massive fight, she said some incredibly hurtful things & now our relationship is near about over, haven’t seen my father or my cat that lives with him in a year now as he won’t let me into the house (that I do I understand cause he nearly died but still tough) my manager was verbally abusing me & the guy I work with, we went to HR & nothing was done, both me & him took a mental breakdown around the same time, he was signed off & then quit, I was diagnosed with depression, have been speaking to a counsellor for 8 weeks now & generally going between wanting to die to wanting to make changes, I am spending Christmas on my own, my friends have all been suffering mentally, I have been talking to them but sometimes I think they just don’t want to hear it. So yeah this year has been hell & 2021 is just gonna be a continuation.

There is way to much to count but I got COVID and was quarenting in my bedroom and fell of my loft bed broke my arm and leg and my parents were outside so im inside upstairs screaming

TW: S**CIDE MENTIONED

I’ve been waiting for this one! February 18th was a train wreck. First, I had art with a “problematic” teacher who is disorganized and generally not the best at communicating. So I was emotionally drained already. It’s fine I got home from school. Got ready for my orchestra concert. Andddddd yay got my first period and my dress is ruined! It’s fine let’s change and put on a pad that feels like a diaper because we don’t have the right size at home and I have to go! The concert just sucked. The other orchestra was so much better. This isn’t just my opinion, everyone in our group agreed. This last part is great. So rewind a few days and I’m texting in a small group chat with two other people. Let’s call them E and F. E suddenly stops replying and when he gets back, he mentions he got really bad news. I asked if he wanted to talk about it but he said no and we went back to our game. He repeatedly brought up how “depressed” he was. In math, he kept trying to cut his fingers with safety scissors. Weird, but ok. It escalated to every 5 minutes bringing up how he wanted to die. We asked if he wanted to talk or needed us to help him get help, but he never wanted to talk anyone. This was like over the course of 2 days. Normally, I would be suspicious for a lot of reasons, but I figured it was better to treat it as if it was real bc that’s not the kind of thing you mess with you know? It’d be terrible if he was depressed and we just shrugged it off. IMPORTANT INFORMATION: both of us (F and I) had had friends that legitimately had terrible depression and wanted to die. So he like “ima s*icide guys” and we spent 2 hours talking him out of it, only for a friend of his to dm me privately with a screenshot of him saying “chill it’s a prank” to the friend. I lost my mind. Even if it was suspicious I was so relieved and angry at the same time that I just cried. I stopped replying that day after messaging F. The next day I yelled at him via text then blocked him and ignored him irl. Still blocked.

Guys I’ve been sitting with this and I’ve only been able to talk to F about this and it’s so calming to let it out after over 9 months.

Today. Currently having a pre-midterm breakdown. Bored Panda makes everything better tho. :)

DATE: December 11th or December 12th or December 13th or July 4th

There were so many deaths in my family and shitty things that happened to me this year that I don't wanna bore people with my list, but I have a sudden urge to run my mouth rn so I have something else I wanna say. I have a theory: people who say that lockdown was a traumatic experience have not experienced other trauma before. It's not a bad thing, but just think about it. I have experienced some extremely emotionally shaking things in the past that I still hide inside, and when the pandemic hit and lockdown began, I was completely unaffected. Yes, covid is terrible and I understand that, but I just laugh at all the commercials and short videos about people struggling to stay occupied during lockdown, the "heartbreak" over staying in your house all the time, etc. I just found it funny that people thought that being stuck in your house all the time was a terrible experience. Nobody that I know who has past trauma and mental scars were really that shaken by the onset of the pandemic. Just kinda think about it. Yet again don't take offense bc it's not a bad thing, I just noticed that for a lot of people I know, this is probably the first traumatic event that they've been hit with. And idk I might be wrong. Just my theory from my experience.

my first day of middle school was cancelled by the pandemic. also the rest of the year. i was really looking forwards to middle school, and it totally sucked when i didnt get to go.

My birthday,
My closest old friend and I got in a huge fight, and we haven't really spoken since. It was awful.