Hey Pandas, What Is The Worst Way You’ve Been Broken Up With?

I'd been having a bad day and it was all just like welling up inside and I started crying. Then I heard a text on my phone and saw it was from her. I smiled a little, 'cause I knew she'd make me happy. When I opened it, it said "hey, I'm not gonna be able to talk for a while" so I responded with "oh, is everything okay?" and she said she just needed to focus on school. That's when it clicked with me. "We don't need to break up tho... right?" I asked. I remember my heart racing as she typed the message and those three dots appeared. Finally she said, "idk probably". I was in a really bad place then and I'm never gonna forget the way every ounce of happiness and hope I had in me just kind of rushed out. I felt the slight smile on my face fade back into tears. I'd lost my world. It took me a year to realize she was gone forever. That breakup got me further down than rock bottom. Even with her, I was struggling with depression. But when she left it got worse. I started doing dr gs and drinking, vaping... I was losing myself, too. But, I'm eight months sober now, I have the most amazing girlfriend, who's gotten me through so much, and I'm happier than I've ever been. Rachel was just a chapter of my life. I don't miss her, I miss the idea of her. Truth be told, she wasn't a good person. After we broke up she and I got in some awful fights. I feel terrible about the things I said, but I doubt she has regrets. I'm so glad to be in such a healthier place now.