Hey Pandas, What Is Something You Do That You're Not Sure Anyone Else Does? (Closed)

I doubt that no one else does it but when I get really excited or nervous (or when I'm just overheating) I shake my hands really fast and I don't know why. It usually pairs with my leg bouncing if im sitting down. I keep my hands in my pockets for this reason and a few others (one being that I have sucky circulation and my hands get really cold)

I often manipulate people and situations to get what I want, without regard for the consequences.

I like being mentally ill. It sucks, but I’ve been this way for so long, I don’t even know who I am without. Wanting to die and freaking out over little things and constantly worrying and counting calories and forgetting/losing everything, not trusting my own brain, it’s all part of me and it has been for a long time. Sometimes I wish this never happened, but it has and I don’t want to get better.

make my ears go HMMMMMMMMMM at will.

My head quickly turns to the side. It happens when I’m riled up, when I hear sounds I don’t like or smell gross things. It makes me close my eyes really tight which in turn makes my ears roar, causing me to do it again.

It is considered a tic, I heard that could have something to do with my adhd.

My musical tastes run to the music of the Jazz Age (1920s). Only authentic recordings, not crummy nostalgia bands. I dig the music of early Duke Ellington, Fletcher Henderson, Mildred Bailey, Bix Beiderbecke, Ben Selvin, Isham Jones, Ben Pollack, Clarence Williams I, Bessie Smith, Noble Sissle, Fats Waller, Ruth Etting. I could go on...

I don't do this unconsciously but i can vibrate my eyes, I can make it seem like my life is an edit lol

IDK if this has been said already, but after I say literally ANYTHING to ANYONE, I'll play it over and over again in my head and then think of the most awesome thing I could've said. Also, when I zone out sometimes it looks like I'm staring at someone and it really creeps them out, soooo, yeah :)

Posted this before but I think it's still relevant.

Whenever I hear a sentence spoken aloud, I count the crosses and dots within that sentence in my head. A dot is either an 'I' or a 'J' because you have to dot them when physically writing and a cross is a 'T', 'Q' or an 'F'; again, because you have to add a line or 'cross them' them when writing by hand. Following so far?

An example sentence might be: 'There wasn't anything I could do about it'. So, I will hear the sentence and immediately think to myself 'Triple cross, dot, cross, dot, cross'.

And yes, I'm neurodivergent.

When I'm sure I'm on my own after a slightly awkward situation I like full on silent scream, it must look a bit odd
Or making facial expressions to go with the imaginary/replayed conversations in my head

Things like rubbing my feet together or on blankets as I fall asleep, or watching the little guy run and do parkour next to the car or on power lines on car rides. Turns out it's most likely just autism and other autistic people do it too. One thing I never figured out was sometimes especially if I'm anxious it'll feel like something is choking me but nothing is even touching my neck at all.

I visualize my mind as a library. All my thoughts, worries and ideas are books in the shelves. The library has shelves from floor to ceiling. There are plants in hanging pots against the walls, with vines draping all the way to the floor. There is also a little balcony with pillows and blankets halfway up the wall of bookshelves. When I am happy, at peace and am not stressed or really thinking about anything, that is where I am in the library. Usually though, I am at the large table in the center of the room. Whatever I have on my mind at the time takes the form of books spread around the table. Usually I will have one specific book open in front of me, representing one thought, worry or idea, and then several more scattered around or stacked beside me. When I am trying to meditate or fall asleep, I visualize closing whatever books I have open and putting them back on the shelves, then climbing up to the balcony and lying down on the pillows. After I lie down on the pillows, the library kind of goes away, as I am not thinking about anything, even the library. Kind of weird I guess. I started doing it after starting middle school as a way to hang on to my sanity.

Whenever I eat something, It will always "remind" me of something. Even if I've never had it before. Like, I had an egg and cress sandwich for the first time a few days ago, and it reminded me of an airport. I had chai for the first time, it reminded me of my aunts house. Raspberries? Saturday morning in our garden. I don't know why. I know that when you have a nostalgic food, you're reminded of the times you've had it- but even if I have food for the first time, I can always, always associate it with a place/concept.

I see colors. If someone is sad, I see a color that resembles sadness. I also come up with stories on the fly. If someone told me to tell a story, I would be able to create an entire universe in seconds. 🙂

One thing that I love doing is taking out two boxes and naming one as praises and the other as insults. I do this at the start of the year.
I write down in chits of paper, all the insults and compliments I have got and drop them into the respective boxes.
At the end of the year, I just go camping and burn all the insults in the fire.
Dunno if its weird or not, but it sure helps a lot.

I have so many I don't even know which of them to write here.

Two jump to mind immediately, so I'll just go with those.

1.) Whenever I have to go into my fridge or freezer, when I close the door, I kiss my fridge and say "thank you" - why, I dunno.

2.) Whenever I hear police, ambulance or firetruck sirens (which is often in my neighborhood sadly), I always cross myself and say, "I hope everybody and everything is okay." Which is silly because if you hear sirens obviously things AREN'T okay, but my hope is that they will be.

It's funny because I'm not religious at all. I was raised Catholic until I was about 5 when we just stopped going to church. I was never baptized, never had communion, catechism lessons, etc. None of that. My Mom always used to do it though, so I started to do it too and still do, to this day.

It really hit home when I was riding in the ambulance with my Mom, when they were taking her to a bigger hospital after she had her aneurysm. They'd stabilized her in our small local hospital but had to transfer her. Speeding, full sirens blaring, etc. I couldn't help but wonder if there were other people out there who heard the noise and might wish her well, like she always did.

I highly doubt anyone else does this…
I spin in circles like over and over and over. As often as I can. I like to do it by our couch so I can put my hands on the back of it so I won’t fall over. I also listen to music while doing it. (On Bluetooth because earbuds don’t work with my Cochlear Implants. My CIs are basically airbuds that are constantly in my ears and I can listen to music whenever I want and nobody will notice.) Spinning helps me daydream too. (Swinging does as well.). And no, I don’t get dizzy. (Yeah I love rollercoasters.)

I read the license plates of passing cars on every single commute I make (car/bus)

1. Never go to sleep unless I've done something useful. 2. Actually join organisations to find out how to change them, or if they are possible to change from the inside. 3. Force myself to not daydream, to think or plan. It invariably turns to self-criticism, so don't do it.

If I can’t fall asleep, I will pull a book from my bookshelf that has a happy ending or scene that makes me happy. I will read those few pages over and over again until I fall asleep.