This is hard for me to say. Anyway, my parents are very devotional Hindus. I grew up believing it. I mean, it's the only religion-like concept that I've been introduced to. But recently, I've been having doubts. They're always at the back of my mind. I read the Mahabharata, (it's like a bible, but in Hinduism) I read the whole entire thing, and the first thing I thought was that I believed none of it. The sad thing is that I learn devotional dance too, and I always feel so guilty doing it, knowing that I don't believe in the stories that I'm representing with my dancing. I don't want to tell my parents. Truthfully, my mom and I don't have the best relationship and religion is something that we connected to. Without it, what would happen? I'm scared, and it feels horrible to have to pretend to believe something you don't. I just don't know what to do.
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