Hey Pandas, What Is One Embarrassing Thing You Lie Awake Thinking About At Night?

Mines complicated. I lie awake thinking of all the things I want to be, things I want to change, all these big ideas I think will help my mental health and physical health. I have like a can-do attitude about it and everything. But once I finally sleep and then wake, it is all forgotten. But at night I get angry at myself for not making an effort. And ways I can change, and then it's stuck on loop. Most days I don't want to get out of bed and I am just always tired, stressed and in a lot of pain. I want my night brain to be my day brain. Any tips.