I know its been a while since I've been on here and I've done all my ranting to my irl friends instead but I might just recap all the stuff that's happened in the last couple of months
Okay so some people here know that I was in the psych ward for a week and a half (third suicide attempt/not eating for a week happened and my friend convinced me to tell my parents about what's been going on) which did help a bit (literally everyone around me is convinced I'm neurodivergent and honestly I probably am AuDHD or at least have ADHD) but not my twitching is way worse cause someone there was screaming a lot and punching stuff and my brain decided that I need to start dissociating and violently twitching whenever I get startled or anxious, and I have anorexia (which I think y'all already know). My depression has also been upgraded form mdd to osdd (basically just mdd+ in my case, mdd with additional bipolar symptoms and also some minor hallucinations and paranoia/delusions) and I'm on anxiety meds (which taste horrible). I've been out of school for like a month, I don't have access to anything that I can use to sh (I've also managed to attempt suicide two more times since that cause I'm creative), and honestly I have no clue what's going on. The only positive thing about this is that my parents are finally realizing that I'm not exaggerating my sensory issues and are allowing me to like. Not have panic attacks daily cause of regular noises. Also one of my friends thinks that I might have seizures which I don't really agree with but I definitely have weird brains stuff going on (my nearly passing out whenever I stand up thing has gotten more noticeable lately and according to the psych ward those are actually blackouts and I do lose consciousness, I just remain standing). I also spent Thanksgiving in the psych ward which was honestly a great excuse to not interact with my entire extended family.