my name is Juan. my father is mexican and my mother is mix of native american and German. my mother did meth, heroin and a few other heavy drugs when she was pregnant with me so i cam out wrong. i was beaten , abused and neglected when growing up.i was also raped by a old male relative of mine. i was aways around drugs and violence . i later end up being associated with gang members. i'm really pale for being Hispanic, i have green eyes, i'm 6 foot and really skinny. i'm not strong but i can bench only a 165 ponds max and i'm proud of that. i have bipolar, adhd, depression, eating and sleeping disorder ,and attachment disorder. i have attempted many times to end my life. my dad left when i was 4, i was removed from the home at age 9 . i have 9 siblings but never get to see them.i had a adoptive family but they disowned me and i went back into foster-care. so i don't have a family and i don't have many friends and any time i get close to a girl they learn how broken i am and leave.so i am a lonely person. i'm just trying to figure out were i fit in. i have lived i Nebraska my whole life. sorry i over shared
DEC 16, 2020