Hey Pandas, Talk To Me About Your Latest Issues Or Struggles. I'm Here To Listen (Closed)

Recovering from my 2nd spinal fusion surgery. It's going a lot better than the first, but there is still pain, and boredom. Once I'm fully recovered, I won't need another fusion for about a decade, hopefully, and that will be in my neck. I'm getting around ok, but still on pain meds and sleeping a lot. Sometimes no pain, some nerve pain, sometimes more sore. But it's never as bad as it was before surgery!

Also, got called from f.i.l's assisted living in another state yesterday, he was really agitated and screaming. They sent him by ambulance to hospital. He.. had never got Medicare part B, and only had Part A and VA. But we found a way the VA will cover his hospital stay. Still, husband wants to visit him, but can't really leave me to make the 6 hour drive. He calls frequently, and Dad is well medicated, but hub still is frustrated at it all. My bff says she can stay with me, but he doesn't want to drive alone, find a room, drive back, and still have to work Mon...

I got usual life struggles. Need an 2nd part time job but every part time job wants their employees available around the clock, 24/7, or they don't consider you. I've got rent increasing every year. Don't know how people can afford to live on their own.
my daughter just graduated but she's special needs and is going into a program to help her find accommodating employment. Her dad is just letting us go adrift, because he's starting a new family with someone he just met last year. Fine. He can be that way. We're hoping she can be accepted on an affordable insurance plan.
I'm trying to get a side art business going but that's more of a strategy game than struggle. I've got a good, repeat customer in the family, thank goodness.
I could actually leave my current job any time, now, as I don't want to be doing this for 35 more year. No. No. GAWD No. NNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

My son leaves for college soon, leaving me alone for the first time since my husband died.

I'm feeling super self-conscious these days and sometimes wear hoodies even if it's super hot

Since the begining of the pandemic I've developped a light online pandemic addiction (mainly books) and it's starting to create financial issues and some tension at home. I'm aware of it and working to go back to normal. The positive aspect is that I always have lots of choice when I want to start reading a new book.

just a few weeks ago I read a post on BP about how kids who were bullied in school were not in fact ugly and unlovable and so on. And I realized that this had been my biggest problem, and that is where it came from. It should have been a relief, but it's just too late, I've internalised it so much and so deep that I don't think I can ever come back from that and come to believe that I am not ugly or lovable or worthy, etc. I'm grateful that one person posted it for people to see, because it will probably help a lot of people, but the only thing it did for me was to put it into words, into coherent sentences.

I am not happy with my marriage with my husband. I have been married for 18.5 years.

Being at my dad's

I hate him and he hates me

Thank God I can go to court soon and get this over with.

He lies to me

Yells at me for no reason

Tries to come up with reasons to take my phone away

He's worse than I make it seem

Because of this I no longer show any interest of contact towards him and do my best to avoid him

I don't wanna see him, I don't wanna look at him I don't even wanna breathe around him! He always reeks of disgusting body spray

I just hate him

I don't have any impetus.

well for me i have a hard time just generally opening up to people which is really bad because I am going to a private school with totally new people.I have gotten out of touch with my best friends and i can mask my feelings perfectly.

Haha, petty struggle, but that YouTuber Flamingo, I have a crush on him. Why me 😩✋

I quit my job on 7/8. And been looking for work. I just used last of money to pay off bills for this month. Going to be empty of cash this week when they payments cash. Trying to get unemployment because even though I quit the job it was because I had gotten injured but the foreman an boss sorta brushed it off that it was my fault. And actually over the 5.5 years there I’d never been written up but all that seems not to matter to the boss that says I’m unprofessional. Dude put it in writing or talk to me. So I’m hoping to get something from the state back. But like I mentioned I’m bow empty. I don’t want to ask my family to help. And I’ve stocked up on pet food for my cats and gassed my car too. So I don’t need much. I have a bag of hot dogs in the freezer. I’m just so stressed about being homeless in a few weeks an by the 10th the car ins will be due an not able to pay from my accounts. I’ve had job offers but I don’t want to go back to retail. I don’t want to work midnights (I have night blindness and going to or getting home in the dark is something I can’t do) or it’s part time very small hours that wouldn’t allow for a second job because they are so scattered. I don’t understand. I want a job but there isn’t anything that normal people can do. Also I suck at waitressing because I’m dyslexic and really bad at it. I’m more a machine person (f52) than a human interaction computer person. Help?