Hey Pandas, If You Want To Vent Or Complain Do It Here

Well hmmm lets see my parents dont acknowledge my existence unless something happens that involves me getting in trouble they didnt care that i got reward certificates for some classes. To them the world revolves around my siblings. They wonder why I am always tired. Well im crying non stop once they go to bed cuz i cant talk about my feelings, I just feel like people wouldnt care. Only one person i knew who actually cared and now i cant talk to them anymore. Lost my best friend of 10 years to suicide. Most of my friends were fake and toxic. And im the person that people know they can talk to their feelings about cuz they know that i will listen, and cuz i barely sleep nowadays they know they can text me whenever. But they never ask how i feel and if i try to tell them i wanna talk about my feelings they either leave me on read or change the subject. Alot of people i know have stopped talking to me cuz i have depression. I really only have 1 friend now and my parents dont like her so who knows how long i can talk to her. I just feel like the universe hates me. And sometimes well now almost every night ive been having suicidal thoughts. Sorry ive overshared.