Since September, I've been relapsing into depression (2nd time). The first time I had was with my bio-father. My aunt and uncle adopted me shortly after I got help. I have a habit of bottling emotions and can't talk to my family because my brothers are too young, my sister constantly tells me that she hates me and can't wait until I move out and there were two times were I had a small panic attack and she told me I had no reason to get upset. So I don't want to talk to her because I know I will cry and get stressed. My father deals with anxiety like I do and has perfectionism like me. I don't want to overwhelm him because he deals with our normal kid crap. I don't know what to do. I'm not suicidal but I'm tired of my own head.
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If you need some more info I would gladly add
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I would tell her you are struggling to verbalise how you are feeling and think a counsellor would help. You don't have to go into more detain, but maybe could say that all the things you were taught previously in counselling aren't helping and would like to find better ways to cope with what is going on in your head. You don't need to be suicidal to benefit from help of a professional. I was really lucky to find a clinic that did an intake interview, so you could get the right counsellor for your needs.
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