Hey Pandas, How’s Life Treating You?

well i'm super excited cause i have my musical tomorrow but umm i kind of relapsed last night i'm sorry...

:( at least i joined bp.

Not well Bc I did not get the best sleep last night there’s a power outage currently and my brother keeps trying to talk about Poultry Man from hermitcraft

Not too well. I feel sort of hollow rn. I know it's my possible bipolar/mood disorder/whatever flaring up again and I'm leaving my high period, but it's still sort of painful. I just feel like I'm not myself, which sucks because I love myself. I'm just not as excited as I usually am, I feel tired of being alive and I'm more self critical about how much I hurt the people around me. I want to tell someone about how I'm feeling but my boyfriend is the only person who I trust enough (other than a few people on this site) and I don't want to hurt him with my problems, especially since his are a hundred times worse. I know I'll be fine in a few weeks, but it feels like I'm going to kill myself. I know it won't happen, but it's exhausting and I just don't want to go through this again. I don't know what I did to deserve it.

Life has been kicking me in the a** the past few months. My hours were cut at work drastically for winter, I work in a restaurant. So money was tight already without surprise expenses. Had to get work done on the car, vet visit, medical bills, etc. But, things are getting better. My boyfriend and I are slowly digging ourselves out of the hole. I'm getting more hours at work, and while we're still living off rice and pasta this week there is finally light at the end of the tunnel. A few more paychecks and we'll be able to start saving again. 😁

Not to great. I feel really confused in a lot of ways, but won't articulate, don't really want to bug y'all. I really feel like I need to see a doctor about my mental health but I can't. I feel like I'm like life's anger management, like it puts me away for a while and then takes me out and beats me up when it's mad

Great haha *eye twitch *

Pretty good. I've had some difficult times, like going through war and almost becoming a refugee with my family twice, but we've always gotten through it.

Not great, but not terrible either. First, the bad: I’m struggling with some mental health issues and I’m having a lot of trouble trying to get treatment for those issues. I’m trying to lose weight as well, which has always been an issue for me and isn’t going great so far, but hopefully will get better once I deal with the mental health issues. I’m constantly tight on money, not quite paycheck to paycheck but not much better either, so I can’t really go out and do anything right now. I also get the occasional bouts of loneliness since I’m living by myself for the first time in a few years and I’m just generally not that great at socializing. Now, the positives: I just bought my first house on my own in my early 30s (I got really lucky on a weird/old house that was on the market for a long time) and have been living there for a few months now. Work at my new-ish job is going well so far and we’re supposedly doing better this year as an organization financially even with the current global economic issues. Also, I’m still alive, relatively healthy, and (just barely) keeping my head above water.

Life is treating me fine but I don’t feel fine

Life keeps throwing me a constant stream of mental and physical health problems. I think it's mad at me. But at least I have bp and, like, 2 irl friends