Hey Pandas, How Is Everyone Doing Today?

I’m doing great but I’m nervous about start grade 12 tomorrow. But I’m staying an extra year for high school, which is great. I don’t know how people are going to react to the new and improved me who has a new personality, new look, new pronouns, new phone, but I have my awesome friends who got my back, so I really don’t have to worry about it. I also have a few enemies, that I’m convinced want me to drop dead. Also I’m looking for a boyfriend who won’t be embarrassed to be seen with me.

Really awful today, Queen Elizabeth died, I hope that I’m not getting an eating disorder, because lately I haven’t been eating as much as I usually do. It’s because a kid in my class said that I looked like I lost weight, and that really f-u-c-k-e-d me up because my body looks fat and I think that food is going to make me fat.
I’m sorry, I just needed to vent a bit.
I drew a picture of me and my inner demons tormenting me, and my friend Corinne is asking me if I’m okay, and I said that I’m not okay.
I’m in a dark place right now and I don’t think I can escape from it, and I’m extremely miserable.

Lousy, but finally got a diagnosis and starting a new med that, combined with the others I take, should improve things.