Hey Pandas, How Are You, Honestly? (Closed)

Im not good im not bad im in this suffocating middle... tiny in size but grand in depth.

I feel like absolute crap. My mental health is really suffering, I am sick and the molars on the left side (top and bottom) are extremely painful causing me constant headaches. I can’t see the dentist coz I am sick and Panadol and nurofen aren’t working. I am in chronic pain with my right foot as I had a cuboid displacement (which corrected itself) BUT it is now unstable so when I walk I can feel it moving causing me pain and one misstep will cause it to displace again. I am in a bad mood more and more often and am really struggling to get out of it. So yeah, fun times.

i have anxiety and adhd and i stutter when i speak and i hate my life and i miss my friends and i don't want to die but i don't want this life that i have and i feel so guilty because my boyfriend has so much more to deal with and i feel like i just make people sad and finals are this week and the week after break and i'm a freshman in high school and i don't know what to do because i'm so stressed and anxious and scared that i physically can't eat and me not eating makes me so anxious and i know people are going to say "just force something down." i can't.
it's like my throat closes up and i can't speak or eat or breathe
i'm so tired and stressed
thank you so much if you read this whole thing.
i just really needed to vent

im not doing so great- im always angry and if something small even happens i will like almost explode with anger.. im a control freak and i obviously have some problems.

Okay 100% honestly? AwFuL jesus christ I've had multiple suicide attempts in the past 3 months that nobody knows about, and I didn't tell my therapist about. I'm trying really hard not to relapse self-harm, and it's not easy. School drained me so much, I couldn't deal with it and almost failed four classes (brought my grades up in time, though). I'm so stressed, and I don't know who to tell or what to do. Whatever. I'm gonna get better, whatever it takes.

Ok, I suppose. Getting tired of sitting at home like a prisoner, but I'm finally getting a hang of the boredom and got into new activities.

no good

I have everything I need to be happy but I'm not. And I have no clue why. Like I can't even talk to someone about what's wrong because idk. I'll figure it out and after that I'll be ok I think

I am " fine ". I say that but in reality im hurting... And the worst part is the fact that my closest bsf doesn't see the truth :(

Not too good, I'm starting to think me and my bff are drifting apart coz we can't see each other anymore. I think the only thing that's keeping me going is music and bored panda.

I'm tired all day. I don't remember what it feels like not being tired. I don't even know if it is tiredness. Whats wrong with me? My class in school is on lock down. Live lessons for me. I miss actually going to school. Most of the time I feel nervous. Especially when I'm not at home. But again school is easier.

Tired. And bored. All the time. I don’t think I could make it through this heck of a ride called 2020 without my friends.

honestly? i'm dying and want to die all the time. Nothing goes right for me and my parents isolate me and the only place I can go is to school and go to church, it sucks because I want to go to friends houses and have fun and be a normal teenager (I'm 16) and I've only been to my friends house a handful of times, i can count on one hand how many times

I feel numb at times, and in doing school. I had an algebra exam and I think I flunked it, I'm not doing to good in any of my classes because I've given up and I don't want to get out of bed I just want to sleep and enjoy my fantasy.

I am still learning to like myself the way I am, and not freak out because I'm a fecked up mess. Actually, I'm doing pretty well right now, compared to normal. :)

I spent half an hour trying to type something in. So I'm just gonna sum it all up and say that I'm fine.

Exhausted. Sad. Stressed. Anxious. Annoyed. im bi and i havent had the courage to tell anyone cuz I dont have the energy to deal with rumors and yeah but anyways i finally worked up the courage to tell one of my friends. And his response was FAR from supportive. He started being a d**k head. Which I shouldve seen coming cuz hes really really immuture. And now i feel like CRAP cuz me was so annoying he was like "omg ur in love with ur best friend ooh lala" And since then I havent had the corage to tell anyone else.

Grieving. It's hard. It hurts. It's a tempest I'm learning to sail in, but it gets friggin hard sometimes. There's a ragged place in my heart and I'm learning to accept it and let it heal. So... I'm sad. I need a hug. I miss my cat. A lot.
Love to y'all

Bad... Sad feelings getting to me... chronophobia... need to see friends...

bored