Hey Pandas, How Are You Doing Mentally? (Closed)

I think I might have way too much anxiety and my stress tolerance has reduced a lot. I’m getting more and more angrier and I’ve started shouting a lot. I hate how my first reaction to stressful things is to cry. Most people say things like “crying is good for you “, “don’t feel ashamed when crying” but they don’t understand how negatively crying has affected my life. I cry for such basic things that people don’t take me seriously or they think I’m manipulative. For example: my physics teacher assigned some homework but the problem was that usually we only had 3 assignments maximum so adding her assignment would give 4 assignments. I got a bit stressed about that even though the assigned work would take 15 minutes max and I started crying in class. My teacher noticed that I was crying and she asked why so I had to explain to her so she extended the deadline only for me. I feel so bad whenever I think of that as I could’ve managed that homework easily within the original deadline. When my summer holidays end next week, my classes will get more advanced and I’m sure that if I tweak my schedule a bit I can fit in all the work but I’m worried that I will start crying everyday so the teachers will have to accomodate me (or they’ll start shunning me) and I’ll be behind on my studies because of my dumb brain who only knows how to cry

today, at school, someone threatened to shoot up the school. like, wtf? i had a panick attack cuz the teachers didn't tell us that is was disproven, so everyone was f*****g panicking. i got taken out of school early tho. and I got a sonic shake.

I'm not good...
I've liked one girl since February last year. I texted her a lottt like all night long from June to October. Then I asked her out. We talked a bit less. I asked a lot of girls out then, I don't really know what the hell I was doing just coping I guess. She started dating. I tried to kms. I started liking someone new. I asked them out two days ago. She said no. Whole time I was still thinking about first girl a lottt. First girl stopped dating. Now I just wanna go back to how it was before and text all the time. Now I can't just text her cause she'll probably call me weird and stop texting back. There's absolutely nothing I can do.

I am so sick and tired of reading people say all homeless people are druggies, unhinged severe mental illness and criminals. Media, politicians and even advocates for the homeless, mostly only show the worst cases of homelessness for scare tactic awareness. While I'm trying to bring awareness to the fact that there's no programs specifically for physically disabled homeless.

I have called over 100 homeless shelters and transitional programs in my state and have only 6 applications (4+ month wait) for transitional programs because I don't qualify. The list of everything I'm not is ridiculous, including being physically disabled. Somehow they can legally discriminate against taking physically disabled people. If I lie and say I'm an addict or severely mentally ill, when I go back to work I'll never be able to do a government type contract because they do federal background checks.

I'm waiting to see if I get disability so I can save more money for an RV. No way I'm going to get an apartment. My 760 credit score is now at an all-time low. If I don't get SSI disability? I'll lose what's left of my hope

I’m doing much better now because my boyfriend is the sweetest, and he makes me happy, even more happy than I have ever been in years. I love my boyfriend so much that I want to spend the rest of my life with him.

wait i'd like to add something. i've started to scratch my arms and legs with my fingernails, just to feel something

Not well

Feeling anxious and "put upon" at work. Thought I was slipping into a depression time and started listening to my depression playlist music. But I haven't been feeling down as I used to. Just frustrated and sick of people speaking to me like I'm 10 or don't hear the first time. I'm so fricken tired of it. I don't need parrots repeating instructions and directions that I just heard 1 second ago, FFS. I'm not stupid.
Everyday last week I bit my hand and smacked my head hard, as I do when I feel like I can't scream and shout, nor run away. Even at my last job I did that maybe a few times a week at the most.
I don't feel like the new managers like me nor trust I know what I'm doing. Not saying I expect them to be my friend or anything. But I don't think the old managers put any good words in about me since I get a harsher tone from them than other people.
But whatever. I'll just go to work, do what I need to do and go home.

Lately, I haven't been talking to my mom as much. Doesn't feel she cares about anything I talk to her about. Always interrupting me, starts thinking about other things then goes off to do something all of a sudden. If I did that to her she'd be furious and shout at me.
At home I'm feeling okay. I'm feeling good.

Constantly bewildered at how shallow society is today.