Hey Pandas, How Are You All? (Closed)

Tired...

Yesterday, I became self harm free! I am happier than I’ve been in a lOOOOng time.

It's friday night, and friday night is cider night.... When it's cider night, I'm doing alright.....

I took my dog to the vet for an allergic reaction to a flea bite. She was diagnosed as having multiple allergy problems (the new one we weren't prepared for is her possible food), a small fatty tumor has developed on her chest, she somehow has staph (wasn't specifically told how but the vet could apparently smell it), and her good eye (the other has a well-settled cataract that blocks most all vision) has problems with it requiring we find a specialist. I knew she was getting old but this was a lot to be hit with this morning and I have a bag of medications to organize and start using for her.

On the positive side, she has no arthritis/joint problems at the moment.

I was slapped by someone I really dislike, and I was trying to control my homicidal rage, so I guess today could’ve started off better, but no, I got slapped in the face, and I felt like I was just punched in the stomach. So to sum it all up, it’s going s**t, today is a shitshow.

its friday im in school. i get annoyed at people who make funs at catholics im also insanely tired

Really really bad, I almost got fired from my daycare job yesterday

I had a rough day at school yesterday. I feel like i embarrassed myself (everyone reassures me no one noticed by I’m not certain) and I have a headache from how much I cried yesterday and I want to go home but I can’t unless I’m sick and I’m not

WARNING! THIS IS LONG!

Not doing very well at the moment. Depressed, stressed, worried etc and this weather the past few months is making me hurt worse than normal.

The past few years have been really rough, but it started about 15/16 years ago. First I got diagnosed with chronic fatigue. I'm was a mom of 2 active kids, didn't worry. Then I got fibromyalgia, then arthritis, degenerative disc disease, spinal stenosis and finally get diabetes. - all this in less than 10 years. Then, 3 years ago I was diagnosed with breast cancer (Invasive Ductal Carcinoma). Totally treatable when caught early enough. I was dead center of the different stages. Because of my chronic illnesses, my youngest really got the short end of the stick. 7 years between kids and she got me being sick - a lot. We had HUGE plans for her senior year. Then, cancer. It wiped out our savings, but we made it through. Work on repairing my relationship with her has been slow. Then, last December 10th, my husband had what they call a "widow maker" heart attack on his way to work. With me disabled, and him not working for a few months, the little we'd saved was gone again. Finally paid off my medical bills and now have his. On October 7th, he had a massive stroke. Luckily, he had stayed home that day and my parents & I were able to get him treatment in less than 45 minutes for the clot buster medication. Life flighted to a larger facility where emergency surgery removed the clot. We're extremely lucky that all he needs is speech therapy! But once again, no income. Living with my parents since my cancer and they are paying everything right now. I have a 15 month old grandson and a granddaughter due December 26th. I have no money, no prospects, etc. I craft so I've made some decorations I'm trying to sell just for Christmas gifts. Between caring for him, trying to wade through the paperwork, trying to get him disability, I've neglected some of my own health issues. But there are only so many hours in the day, you know?

Thanks for letting me vent.

I am in the ER, as I have been, for the past three hours and fifteen minutes and I have still not gotten helped. I got bit by something while I was outside, the bite welted up, I popped it (I know, I know, I shouldn’t have), I waited a few hours and then the skin started falling off, I knew this was NOT NORMAL, so I went to the hospital and the doctor sent me to the emergency room (he said whatever bit me was venomous), and here I am. Waiting.

Sigh. I feel like I'm feeling something that does not have a name.

Feel free to vent or to talk abt anything

It was a difficult year but I am doing a little bit better day by day, thank you for asking! How about you?

My throat is sore :(, but we had a maths test that went well so that's nice!

My life sucks but I can't explain anything because my stepmom is stalking my bp account rn.

Yesterday there was a photo on (what I guess is called) my Google feed. It seriously screwed with me. Like, never thought about something with this level of F ed up. Just needed to vent since I don't use FB.

Tired. So very very tired

Actually I had a really good day. This woman I work with and I had had trouble working together. But we've bonded over pranking a mellow dramatic jerk that we both hate. And turns out, we have alot in common besides wanting to annoy our coworker.

Weird tbh..

Decent right now in school.