i guess ill answer first then.
Im in high school now, just on spring break, and man do i feel exhausted already. it feels like it moves too fast now, and im just lagging behind trying to catch up. its now the first year where things in my brain have started to fully click into place, i realize what i want, who i am, what i want to do, and who i want to be around vrs those i dont. at this point i feel like that interaction with the mirror in undertale describes me a lot.
"it's you!" " despite everything, its still you".
nothing really seems to stay, but everything still lingers. its almost like a bit of a limbo, but i'll do my best to get past it.