I will admit that I have never been in public school. However, I have different advice.
1. You don't know everything. You never have and never will. That's fine. You're a human being, not the Encyclopedia Britannica.
2. Generally, kids around 11-13 start doing whatever they can to fit in, because they start feeling like they are outsiders or freaks (and it's the first time they've ever cared). Don't. You are unique and special, and you don't need to conform to whatever everyone else already did.
3. I have a brother in 5th grade. I love him to pieces, but he's an utter idiot. And that's all right, like I said in 1. He's still learning how to be a human being, and so are you. Don't be too hard on yourself for not knowing what you feel you should.
4. I see that you mentioned that you have anxiety. I am fully aware that what works for me might not work for you, but here are some tips (you mentioned already seeing a school counselor, so I won't include that): exercise. Nothing crazy, just go for a walk every day or ask your parents to buy you a jump rope or something. Exercise gives you more energy to do the things you need to do, reducing anxiety if that's what's making you anxious. Figure out what triggers your anxiety. For me, I have trypophobia (fear of clusters of small holes and such) and feeling helpless triggers anxiety as well (not writing all my triggers down, too long). I have a bracelet, given by someone very important to me, that I use to help with the anxiety. Holding it and remembering nice memories is a good place for me.
5. Finally, remember that you are just a child. You have plenty of time to grow up, darling. You don't need to do it right now. Remember also that having crushes is normal, but be wary of claiming to have fallen in love. Sometimes you really did, but sometimes it's just a crush. Thank you for reading my advice, sorry it was so long XD.
1. You don't know everything. You never have and never will. That's fine. You're a human being, not the Encyclopedia Britannica.
2. Generally, kids around 11-13 start doing whatever they can to fit in, because they start feeling like they are outsiders or freaks (and it's the first time they've ever cared). Don't. You are unique and special, and you don't need to conform to whatever everyone else already did.
3. I have a brother in 5th grade. I love him to pieces, but he's an utter idiot. And that's all right, like I said in 1. He's still learning how to be a human being, and so are you. Don't be too hard on yourself for not knowing what you feel you should.
4. I see that you mentioned that you have anxiety. I am fully aware that what works for me might not work for you, but here are some tips (you mentioned already seeing a school counselor, so I won't include that): exercise. Nothing crazy, just go for a walk every day or ask your parents to buy you a jump rope or something. Exercise gives you more energy to do the things you need to do, reducing anxiety if that's what's making you anxious. Figure out what triggers your anxiety. For me, I have trypophobia (fear of clusters of small holes and such) and feeling helpless triggers anxiety as well (not writing all my triggers down, too long). I have a bracelet, given by someone very important to me, that I use to help with the anxiety. Holding it and remembering nice memories is a good place for me.
5. Finally, remember that you are just a child. You have plenty of time to grow up, darling. You don't need to do it right now. Remember also that having crushes is normal, but be wary of claiming to have fallen in love. Sometimes you really did, but sometimes it's just a crush. Thank you for reading my advice, sorry it was so long XD.