Hey Paandas Vent Here If There Is Something You Need To Get Of Your Chest

I woke up early and overheard my parents saying how much Trinity is such a disappointment, we shouldve gotten the abortion, ect. So ive already said this but my best friend killed herself. And i only had one other person i really did consider a best friend, well she left me because i told her i was bi.

i basicly don't sleep anymore because my parents always yelling at me for something i did and the night is peaceful so i pull all nighters like three times a week and when i do it feels like s**t but i feel like sh i t in the morning anyway so i don't care and our stupid guidence consuler just repeats everything back to my parents anyway so i can't tell her either i feel trapped in my own skin and i feel like it is never going to get better also i know evreything is spelled teribley and i don't care

I am trying to get into a college that I will barely be able to pay off getting into but i need a phd in engineering and technology to pursue my dream job. my only friends are online. my irl friends left me over a huge situation hat lated many months my main freetime is just watching streams hours on end and im having trouble in school bc of adhd i also have social anxiety