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I've been out for over 5 years now, and while I've learned to do a lot of things, it's still not easy. I dream alot of being in prison. Where's it's easy. No responsibility. And believe it or not, less stress and anxiety. I've been in institutions my whole life, since I was a little kid. Foster homes, group homes, treatment centers, juvenile detentions. It's what I know. It's where I'm comfortable. I don't know if that will ever change.
‘Jail’ and ‘prison’ might be used interchangeably colloquially and in popular culture, but they are very different. In the United States, ‘jail’ mainly refers to short-term holding facilities. There, people typically wait for their trials and sentence, or they serve out their sentences that are shorter than a year. Jails are generally under the jurisdiction of cities, local districts, or counties.
Meanwhile, ‘prison’ refers to long-term holding facilities meant for people convicted of more serious crimes. They are under the jurisdiction of states and federal governments.
So, talking about daily life in jail and prison has very different connotations. In the latter case, you’re incarcerated for an incredibly long amount of time. It takes a different, deeper kind of toll on you.
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Some mornings I make a cup of coffee or drink a cup tea while waiting on the officers to release every one for breakfast. After grabbing my lunch for the day I have about forty minutes before I have to go to work. So I return to the cell to brush my teeth again and watch some news on my television. Seven o'clock I'm at work in the maintenance department. Sometimes we load trucks with unusable metals and recyclable aluminum. For the most part my work days are easy. I have plenty of time to study and read.
At one o'clock I'm off work. Sometimes I have to stop by the education building to take care of some business issues, so I stop by there for a few minutes. Usually from there I try to get my shower before all the guys come in from the yard.
From two o'clock to five o'clock I study. Dinner time is right after that and I'm off to class again. Normally at eight o' clock I'm back in the cell. I have just about one hour to watch something on television. By ten o'clock I'm exhausted and I prepare to go to sleep and start over again the next day. That is my typical day in prison.
As per Verywell Mind, being incarcerated takes a serious toll on your mental health. For one, you lose your sense of purpose when you’re behind bars.
You can also experience the loss of your identity, which can be very confusing. Suddenly, you’re no longer known for the profession, talents, skills, or knowledge you had on the outside.
Furthermore, you also have to deal with the reality of being separated from your loved ones. While your family and friends can sometimes visit you in prison, you no longer have the option to be involved in their daily lives. If you have children, you’re not a part of their growing up. If you have older relatives, you can’t take care of them directly. It’s isolating.
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I honestly had no idea what I was about to endure. I had lived a sheltered life for the most part. I quickly learned life can be cruel.
When I entered the county jail, they put me in a cell that was extremely over crowded and loud. It was horrible. Once they closed the solid iron door, I was locked in a room with no windows or anything. They only opened the door to feed us, give meds or to grab an inmate or put one in. I thought this was bad but I didn't know what was coming..
I finally made it to the state prison. As soon as I got there they chopped off my long beautiful hair to be even with the bottom of my ears. Then they told me to get completely naked. There was 10–12 other other ladies standing around. I felt completely sick and embarrassed. Nonetheless I had to obey them. I got naked and searched while everyone else watched. Then they gave me some state issued clothes and sent me to my assigned bed. I got to a point where I had to use the restroom. When I walked in the bathroom I instantly wanted to cry. The toilets were lined up side by side, very close together and not a lick of privacy. Same goes for the showers. Everyone got to see and smell everyone else doing personal things. Then the way the guards treated me, made me feel like I was nothing but a number. I was not human. I was told when to eat, sleep, and wake. I had no free choice. I had to wake up in the middle of the night many times while they did surprise searches, only to have everything I own, thrown on the dirty floor and gone through.
It was pure h**l and humiliation. However it worked as far as making me never want to come back. I will never understand how some don't learn and keep going back.
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Your living amongst anywhere from 50 to 200 inmates in a stone and metal enclosure that echoes and carries every shout, curse, or scream to every wall and room. There are gangs, clicks, and alliances to keep note of. Sit in the wrong place and you could invite a conflict.
Worst of all, you're wrestling with the guilt of your crime, the guilt of being separated from those who depend on you, the shame of disappointing your family, the helplessness to being any kind of influence in anyone's life. You can't even provide for yourself. You are completely dependent on the state for food, shelter and clothing. This is a demoralizing state. Your only value is now as livestock in the world's biggest human trafficking operation. And that's exactly how you are treated.
Yes prison is hard. But human beings, we are able to endure incredible hardships. Compared to the free world where there's so many dangers and threats and ways to fail or f**k up that it's a miracle that we make it each day. In prison your life is so simple and you are removed from that danger, you're so safe you'd probably survive a war.. prison life is so simple and easy it becomes hard to bear. If you ever seen an animal that's been kept in a cage for months and months, when it used to run free. Look into its empty hopeless eyes and that's what prison feels like.
On top of that, there’s the environmental stress that you now have to shoulder. “Concrete walls, little natural light, and a lack of overall stimulation can take a serious toll on mental health. People in prison have few ways to relieve stress. And their sterile environment is likely to fuel boredom, which can be quite stressful in itself,” Verywell Mind explains. This environment, to be clear, affects prison staff as well, not just the inmates.
Then there’s the frequent exposure to violence when you’re behind bars. You can witness fights during breaks and meal times, and see violence occur between guards and prisoners. This leads to emotional distress and can impact how you adjust to life outside of prison when you’re free.
You can, yourself, become a victim of aggression, too. And if you end up in solitary confinement due to disciplinary or safety issues, it’s even worse for your health. These conditions can exacerbate any mental health problems that you already have. Moreover, you can develop mental health issues as a result of extreme isolation, such as anxiety, paranoia, insomnia, aggression, and depression.
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In the UK if your original sentence is over 4 years long the sentence remains “unspent” for the rest of your life, effectively a life sentence as almost every job application form has the question “Do you have any unspent convictions?” and you never get any further. Even the ones who have signed up to “Ban the box”, (meaning they don’t ask the question in the initial process) will ask the question later. Add to that, there are only 2 or 3 insurers out there who will offer any kind of insurance to anyone with unspent convictions meaning that car insurance so someone who went to prison paying £200 a year for a nice car could easily be faced with £4000/year charge. I witnessed this with a friend who called one of the specialist companies and when he queried it he was told “Well, you shouldn’t have done what you did then should you?”.
So no, in the UK prison life is not hard, but life after prison is made even harder.
#8

Very bad food and no beer to wash it down.
Get used to your stuff being ransacked by the guards and frequent strip searches.
Not trusting anyone because there are always people who will take advantage of you if they can.
Even if it's just a simple barbed wire fence, you're still an animal living in a cage.
#9

According to one study, mental health problems are “highly prevalent” in prisons. “ Incarcerated persons generally come from disadvantaged backgrounds and are living under extraordinary conditions while in prison. Their healthcare needs are complex compared to the general population.”
Some of the main barriers to seeking mental health help among incarcerated individuals include distrust in the system, challenges with the referral routines, worries about negative consequences, and perceived limited access to mental healthcare. These barriers might be reduced by providing information about mental health and available services, initiating outreaching mental health services, and integrating mental health interventions into treatment programs.
What’s also vital is how prison officers and healthcare personnel respond to prisoners reporting mental distress.
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smile livin’ ain’t all that bad
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Which of these stories left the biggest impression on you? Have you ever been incarcerated? What were the biggest challenges that you had to overcome during your time behind bars? Have you ever worked at an incarceration facility before? What was it like?
This is a sensitive topic, but if you feel like sharing your experiences, feel free to do so in the comments at the bottom of this post.
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If an inmate is smart, they’ll spend their time doing constructive things and making the most of their time.
Some plan their routine around their prison jobs, others around working out. Things I did were: study, read, exercise (walked the track 2 hours a day), play Ultimate Frisbee on the yard, play D&D, watch TV, teach classes, do my prison orderly job, type e-mails for people as a hustle, cook, listen to music, play tickets (sports gambling), painted, etc.
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After breakfast most people go back to bed. You have to be on your bunk in open dorm, or in your cell. Shift changes is around 7 am, then count time.
After count you are usually free to move around until lunch. You can watch tv, read a book, shower, play cards, draw, color, write letters etc. There's a small rec yard, people walk in circles for hours including myself others play basketball.
Lunch is served, crapy sandwiches, apple or oranges, a cookie, salt peter koolaid. Then back on your bunk or in the cell while trustees clean up. Sometimes that chore rotates and each inmate takes a turn cleaning. There is usually another count time after lunch. Then you have a few more hours free time before dinner.
Dinner is served, its gross and smells good at the same time. Then back to lock down for clean up and shift change. There's usually a Church Service a couple nights per week otherwise you have more free time to k**l before lights out at 11. Guess what happens next… count time, sleep, more counting while you sleep and repeat.
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If on locked down, due to recent violence, foggy weather, rumors of violence etc., you are in your cell the entire day. Write letters, read, draw, exercise (calisthenics), talk to others on the tier etc. are pretty common. If you have a TV, a radio and/or a cellmate then you have more options but that’s pretty much it. Your meals are brought to the cell and you’ll get a brief shower in the building every few days but likely no visits or phone calls.
If on normal program your average day is likely the same as it was the week prior etc. etc. If you have a job you go to that but it’s never more than 8 hours. If the yard is open while you are not at work, you will get some time outside to mingle, work out, play handball/basketball etc. If the dayroom is open while you aren’t working you can use the phone, watch the communal TV, get a haircut maybe etc. Otherwise, when not in work or the dayroom/yard you will be in your cell except for traveling to the chow hall for breakfast and dinner (some places have a hot lunch but usually it comes in a bag you get at breakfast).
If you don’t have a work or school assignment you will probably have limited access to the yard and dayroom and be in your cell more often. Some people elect not to spend all the available time outside the cell and thus live as though they are on locked down.
Notable events are laundry once a week and canteen once a month. Packages from the streets are usually quarterly. Most places have weekend visits but some offer them on certain weekdays as well.
Keep in mind, if you are in solitary confinement your day looks similar to being locked down but you will have outside access (restricted) about 10 hrs a week. If you live in a dorm environment your day looks different than one who is in a 1 or 2 person cell for obvious reasons. Lower security prisons offer more time outside the cell while higher security ones offer less. For example minimum security often get to go outside whenever they want during the day and early evening while maximum security have a set few hours during the day in which the yard is opened but you can only go in or out at certain intervals.
These questions are notoriously difficult because prisons and people doing time in them vary widely. The consistent theme is that the people who navigate prison the best develop a routine and we can have an exaggerated investment in those routines being consistent. If dinner is at 430p and it doesn’t come by 435p you will encounter a lot of highly agitated people, perhaps even unreasonable, but it is because we connect to routines and fidelity to them is the one way we have a semblance of power or control. I don’t dictate when dinner comes, but if I know when it is coming I find comfort/stability in that power..when it is late my whole frame of reference for life might as well be jeopardized.
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You'll be scared. I don't care how tough you are. In an unfamiliar place where all sights, smells and sounds around are new, not sure of your pending future.
You will change. Your diet, perspective, attitude and habits will be severely altered. Not always for the worst. You will have all the time in the world to work out, read, cry and regret every decision you ever made.
You'll adapt quickly. That is, if you aren't a little… you know.
Don't complain. Be respectful but don't make too many friendly gestures; be cool. Pray. Join a class and get a job.
DO NOT BORROW ANYTHING! you'll meet truly friendly people and you'll meet truly evil people that have nothing but time. “Don't take the snickers bar on your bunk”
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There you are, standing in front of the most violent alpha males sniffing at you for the slightest hint of a fear pheromone. You are at your most vulnerable on your first day because you do have not a clue about the world you just stepped into. It's obvious to us regulars who are third or fourth-time offenders that you're rolling in with pudding in your drawers. That look in your eyes says it all.
On the other hand, for those of us who were State raised in its glorious institutions and state facilities, it's like a family reunion. It's like one's second home for some, primary for others. No exaggeration whatsoever.
What you are in for and how you carry yourself will determine the future for you from that point on. Don't join prison gangs. Always run with your people. Don't gamble or get into debt. Do not ever lie to a fellow convict. Do not touch what is not yours. Do not vouch for anyone. Don't mess with homosexuals. Respect the prison politics. Do not talk to the guards. Keep your eyes and ears open and mouth shut; you don't know anything didn't see a damn thing.
A prison is a unique place for everyone. What it was like for me was my experience, no one could ever truly understand it, no matter how much of my experience choose to share. No one could have ever walked in my shoes because they were made for my feet to do so in. Many say prison is hell and what have you. Perhaps that was the path laid for them to walk and experience. For some, it was a one-way ticket, for whatever reason. My experience was ‘Monastic’, despite the violence, death, madness, and all wickedness that abound. I live in peace, mentally and emotionally, as best as I can; and more, if needs be.
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